argh, come on!

i am confused.
i really like this dirty guy, but this feeling is blurring. (if you know what i mean.)

and now i am confused, because not because he is mean, dirty, and stuff.
but, it's just because i have no braveness to say to him that i like him.
well, i have said that to him.
yea, i have said to him that i like him. and he's okay with it.
i am dealing with big things here.
i am just afraid.
wait, why am i supposed to be afraid?
there's nothing to be afraid of.
this is shitty. liking a boy is sooo shitty.

i like just like lady gaga singing a song.
she always makes it unique, wait not singing. it's just like what lady gaga always wears.
she wears unique stuff, right?
i make liking become something unique. so it'll be fun and challenging for sure.
i love challenge because my life is boring enough, so that's why i want to add some new colors.

so what must i do?
i think i don't like him, anymore.
bye-bye.