my pretty fcuking prom!

PROM GOT ME GOING REALLY GOOD. damn hell yeah. i wore my sisters dress cause it doesnt fit me, and i like things that i dont really fit in. cause i dont really want to fit in this fcking damn world.
back to the prom thingy. i wore black, and a ridicilous necklace, and a bracelet :) i looked awesomely nasty and ugly. i got ready and took a bath in nadya's house, and she has a nana, she is DAMN noisy. couldnt stand it. but, i acted fake but polite. i just smiled and i heard she was talking to me behind the door. but anyays, i wore 13cm heels. and i felt amazing for the first 1 hour, and then i started to feel : damn i wanna die. and when i was dancing, i took off my heels, and i couldnt walk :)
wow-heels are painfulkiller.
thats me the aftar partay. after that, i moved my ass to hard rock cafe in ex. damn i was tired but i was friggin happy.

thoughts. thought. pictures of you.

dang. i miss you.
dang. i hate you.
dang. why am i thinking this way?

we rehearsed today. again and again. im extremely exhausted. and i still suck. o'course :O
HAHA. just heard about justin bieber's hacked twitter. HAHA. thats hilarious. i like justin, but im not as crazy as those millions of girls who have more powers than the navy seals. daaamnnn.
i also heard aboyut the karpal syndrom. DAMN. im so scared of using computers right now. they did some surgery on this woman, her hand looks veryveryvery scary. like real scary.
ohlala.

i cant just keep thinking about one thing:boys. catn, just cant. but this boy, this one boy is always here. keep moving but my mind about him is-. im excited, but im sad. on june6th im gonna go, im gonna take off. im gonna go for a flight to MELBOURNE via BALI! this is fun! so sososososossososososososo fun! i cant wait to not see your face and to not write on my blog everyday :)

i dont know. im gonna write something critical in a sec. just wait. just wait to cry :)

my first kiss went a little like *shooottt.

sometimes. oh wait. think think think. oh i know what my problem is.

IT'S YOU.

you've been buggin my eyes for like AGES, beautiful GALS.

damn, i hate you guys SO MUCH RIGHT NOW.

you know what, if this is america, i'll take lindsay lohan's line in georgia rule or soemthing.

she says : you disturb me one more time, i'll fck your boyfriends stupid.

and id like to say that, TO YOU. but i still have limitations. i still know whats called normas and kesopanan.

and i know how to make you stupid friggin hate me. piece a cake. i know somethng that YOU dont even know. and when you find out, you'll be as crazy as my baby milo doggy.

well, ass my ass. hate me now hate me. i think i have a talent to be a friggin rejected writer :) hmmm...

well, roses are red, violets are blue, i have five fingers the middle one's for YOU :)

whwre are you? come and get me.

oh fck it, really like, io wish i could be right beside your side right damn now and say : bitch, i really wanna hurt you back.

leaving me without a good reason was a bad thing. because this illness is eating my heart. facing the truth is kinda hurty. well, so hurt if i can say.
but ive never been so fcked up before. but i feel so much better everytime i get a long with friends. i aint popular, i aint rich, but i do have the best friends in the world.

i wish you could just hate me, and that'd be easy for me to forget you.
but, but, but, i have said ifs, buts, and, ands too much.

i guess this is kinda hard.

hello earth intruders.

greetings. HAHA.

how are ya bitchess?
im soo bored right now. and starving for some lunch. i really wanna go home and make some pancakes. ahah.

i really wanna go home. what have you guys been doing lately?
hmmmm. i heard about girls dying in AUSTRALIA because of justin's concert on sunrise.
well thats exaggerating. good becaus the cncert has been cancelled due to safety reasons. down know why its just a bit dangerous to go out if theres justin there.

i know justin is cute, but WOW. thats..... probably big stuff.

and i still miss you. i dont know why, i just miss him so much. this is bullshit and shitting me. if this is love then why i dont really like myself missing him?

HE HURT ME BEFORE.

i think im jealous. i think i like you.

hell yes i do have this crazy feelings for you. and i cant wait to see you again :)

i dont wanna dance anymore, because she was mad at me.

i was dancing when some teacher was announcing some stuff about mandarin.
and when i was going out of the room, she stopped me. she told me something about failing.

is it about me not accepted in SU high school? OH REALLY?
well, because i just love to dance so much, really bad :)

but, i guess i just have to stop.

and i dont know why everytime i dance, i start to think about her getting mad at me.
and i felt so bad, so sick, so something.

so, i better stop.
and i just wanna tell you, i LOVED to dance.

i dont know, im gonna kick some ass tonight, im gonna dance and scream :)

i get complains, i know. but do i care?

i think i like you.

yes, i do.

JUSTIN I MISS MY BABY BECAUSE OF YOUUU!

damn, what a day.

im so pisseddddd today!

all because of you WOMAN! dammit, im so pissed.

i really dont wanna see your face.

and my quote of the day is :

roses are red, violets are blue, i have five fingers and the middle one's for you.

thankyou to weheartit.com

THIS BREAKS!

http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l0v8jk0VG81qa5q6jo1_500.jpg

good hell, this hot guy is//////////

DIGGY I LOVE YOU!

yes. i..

so, people who say i aint normal. lick your spits, cause this is me :)

it's not just caffeine darl that kills. i've tasted life pain before. it sucked!

hell i cant :*

YEAH FUCK 1001 POSTS!

IM VERY OLD FOR THIS BLOG, it has been almost two years. BUT ANYWAY, YEAH YEAH SHIT 1001!

OH EXCITEMENT!

dont you know alejandro?

im uploading some photos to facebook.

dont know why, i just love it :)

to show how much i adore and love myself :DD

wait, dammit JOE JONAS! i love you! HAH.

isnt he alluring? hahaha. i love him hoho.

OH MY GOD. come here.

I SUPPORT SAME-SEX COUPLES!

i am the wooden floor.

ive watched this video, and its true, i find that by dancing, i can be free.

dont care how bad, how good i dance.

thats me.

feel your heart. beat. beat. beat.

dont care. go. step. jump. dance.

CAUSE FROM HERE I CAN GO ANYWHERE.

My life is in pain without you saying, “love.”

heyaaaaaaa ruffsss.

i still miss you. i still hate you, and i still care for you. thats why i asked. HAH DAYMN.

wait, before i begin everything. i would like to start with a song that is sung by, you'll know who, and he sings kinda girly like justin bieber, BUT I LOVE THEM BOTH, and this song is for you, as a friend, as someone in the past, future, present, as an enemy. and this is for You too God.

listen to this guy :)

hey, so, hey, how are you?

im dirtily fine, and you?

keep eating veggies, and do what your mama tell you to do :) kk?

haha.

i dont really wanna talk right now cause i have tons of prjects and work to do. DAYMN. so gotta pump this ass.

FCK YOU. so fck.

sorry, im so mad right now, hah.

you know that i love you boy, hot like mexico rejoice.

i remember when you were wathinc gravity on my ipod. and you're like gravity, daymn.

i blame you for this confusion.

you told me to stop, and slow down. and i stole a look at you, and what did you do?

you're hanging me on. AND THATS NOT REALY NICE.

damn, i thought we were having a real moment.

but damn. now, what must i do?

im waiting for you darling. waiting.

thats you.

you super nasty guy.

i feel like climate change is drowning my mind and heart.

huh?

uh yeah girl, you're funny :)

fck YOU I DONT NEED YOU.

i hate you sometimes!

UGH IM HATING MY SISTER!

ARGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!

ego selfcentred gak tau malu!

KESEL.

you broke my heart once. HAHA.

i guess now, my heart is beating for you.

life sucks without you.

yes, life has become a bit dull.

but, i dont want this shit drives me down. i guess i gotta let you go then.

i care for you too much. thats right? yeaah, thats wrong..

so wrong....

i miss you still.

this is like,, im falling for someone, but i dont who!

(well, actually i know, but REALLY THAT GUY?)

damn.

Feel my heart, uh wait, it’s not beating for you. Umm……

YOU HEARTLESS BITCH.

you cant make up your mind. im not tryna rewind.

i guess, im over. game is over. game? game?

there's no game.

ah bitch

just like TAIO CRUZ, you broke my heart, you heartless BITCH.

you know what BITCH,

I AM SO DONE WITH YOU, DARL.

thank YOU, my best friend for waking me up. i guess i've pushed myself too hard.

but anyway, im done with this b. i. t. c. h.

oh justin, i wanna cry. haahaha, but this is cute :)

i just saw this on facebook.

MY SISTER SAYS IF I CAN GET 1 MILLION FANS SHE WILL NAME HER BABY MEGATRON.

a really good fan page :)

im gonna name my baby : lady gaga then later.

no, no, my kid's name will be HAWILA.

a place in heaven where we can find gold there. and im sure there are tons of gold in my baby in the future :)

HAPPY EARLY EASTER PEOPLE!

FOR ME, EASTER IS TOMORROW, BUT WELL, HAPPY EASTER ANYWAY!

being a bi.

bisexual. that word is, for me, a free word for a free person.

Lady GaGa is a bi. she has admitted it.

and i like lady GayGay for telling the truth.

being a lesbigay/bi/straight/anything i dont care.

really? that doesnt really matter.

i dont care. i dont care if im hugging a bi, or even a person with HIV/AIDS.

as long as i keep myself save, then im save.

i do need people around, but i also need.. myself. i need myself to protect myself.

it is nothing if i need others to help/protect/anything, but i dont even help myself.

that is selfish.

everything starts from myself.

back to being a bi.

i dont know why, but how can a girl be in love with a girl?

i like girls,, but i dont put ANY INTEREST on dating one of them.

is it interest that makes people become gays?

i love guys. and i've been in love with a guy, once. i guess once.

well, that depends on you, i guess.

i smell something good.

yup, that's true.

I SMELL YOU, HANDSOME.

imissYOU.

today is the day. the night that i've been waiting for! sososo cant wait.

6 pm, a mass at my church.

im so disappointed after knowing that the mass is going to be held at 6.

i had a plan to go somewhere else with a friend but im having a mass, and the event is being held at the same time, on th same day :P, but it's called "easter night"

or we call it : tirakatan kebangkitan Yesus Kristus.

oh God. i miss YOU so much.

im such a sinner.

:(

i miss YOU God. when are You coming back?

i just want You to know, im ready for everything you're gonna give :)

i love You just like i love everybody that is around.

thank You for my family, friends, boyfriends, gilrfriends, everything.

even the teachers and enemies those hate me tight now.

without them, MY LIFE WOULD SUCK.

i thank You also, for making today. even though it's not the best day ever. it is the best day yet :*

imissYou.

i'll see You and feel You tonight at six pm. ST. STEFANUS CHURCH.

And btw, Thank You for waking up tonight.

Sorry yesterday I forgot to do my prayers before going to sleep. I was extremely exhausted and full of lies. Sorry.

patricia is going to burn pancakes tonight!

haha, im so gonna gain so weight! miss.

somehow this might happen to me, somehow i think this might be just a beautiful dream.

careful.

what you said, will say, just said, have said.

MIGHT HURT SOMEONE in the future.

“I do like WOMEN. But I do love men. Yeah, I’ve been in love a man before, but I’ve never been in love with a women. So that’s all the song was about.” –Lady GaGa

GaGa is a bi. and i....

brokenhearted.

sometimes i feel like, aaah, this isnt right. this is wrong.

but, no, i guess i am right.

this brokenhearted is shit. i know brokenhearted shit.

and now im stuck in a k-hole love. oh wait, like and care.

well.

Good Friday.

as a catholic. i just got back from church and just ate because i was fasting -_-

soooo hungry :0 ahah.

fasting isnt a must, but He fasted before, so i would love to taste the same thing.

Thank You God. i love YOU.

and we wonderin..

meaningful words, love it.

comedy SUCKS! this one sucks. even HANNAH MONTANA bitch is funnier.

my favorite jeans label, released eyewear collection.

are you watching?

good good friday.

good mourning.

im a little sick today.

ugh.

well, yesterday i watch PASSION OF CHRIST.

oh Lord. im so so sorry for what i've done. i cried soo soo bad.

ugly-ly i cried for you God.

im sorry. sorry for what i've done.

good friday, are you guys attending church today?

i am.

cause i'm not crazy, im just catholic :)

see you around.

We got our guns, we got our guns in the motherfcking air.

the thing about justin bieber is :

i have the same sunglasses as he has!

Life is..

What do you think? Give a guess. Give a clue.

Can you just give me one shot?

Or tell me, at least 5 reasons why I should be breathing right now?

It’s not about me being sick of life.

Life is..

Still, I have no clue.

Death for me..

Is about having rest and sleep forever.

You are being cried by many people,

Many people, umm, interesting.

Nobody has ever cried for me before.

Can I just die, or at least see you cry for me?

Nobody has ever cried for me.

I would rather die.

Catch up the loved ones.

Come back.

Come…

Because for me, death is always fun.

Interesting, life is just a bridge thet we’re passing through.

A bus stop, and we’re waiting for a bus to stop for us.

When? That’s a great question.

Kiss the time, and it might give a whisper..

Whisper it loud.

So maybe I can hear it.

I guess death.. death it is.

gutsin bieber, he got me.

BABY BABY BABY, NO.

the video's place itself, took a place near the universal studios. it's like a downtown but i dont what it's called. and the thing is : i've been there and i met *

when i was there, like a year a go, i felt like i was raped, nicely. HAHA. but, seriously, i would love to meet the rapist.

WAIT, NASTY BITCH, no, so we had this private party in a place called RUMBA ROOM. it was amazing and wo-oww.

we seriously didnt do anything nasty nor serious.

but when we were returning to the hotel, i couldnt stop shaking.

but anyways, good times come and go.

and this was one of them, i miss you, man.

the stupidest video :

is by justin bieber - NEVER LET YOU GO.

GET A NEW GIRL JB.

about dating.

ugh, thank God, im not dating anybody right now. huh hah huh.

focus to the real thing, i've gone through the NATIONAL EXAMS (THANK YOU YOU YOU!)

and now, there are tons to get through.

wish me luckluckluck! :*

dating seems to be pretty funny to me. like right now.

i feel like, dating seems to be veryvery interesting, but wait, im still stuck in the moment with (ehm).

well then, i seem to be very sick right now (in a good way, which means :

i cant push my heart, because my heart still likes and cares about him.

well. what to do?

i'd rather punish my body and hurt myself than lying to my own heart, because lying kills.

are you lying right now?

I know, I feel that. Life has become dull. But with you, it was heartbreaking but yet alive.

kennnyyyy,, give me back my voodoo doll sunglassess!

i suddenly miss them :(

thopse glasses have made him become more more handsome. now hand them to me.

this picture : my jaiho girl, Oriyoku, Kenny, and, Cindy.

picture day, THURSDAY last week.

i miss that day :(

im still waiting for YOU.

YOU MUST MUST MUST ATTEND THE CHURCH TODAY!
for catholics, im waiting. so dont forget, God is waiting!

What do you think of love?
Can you have a guess? Can you give a try? Or a taste?
Is it tasty? Tell me. seduce me with your thing called love.
Tell me what you got.

I would love to be a vampire, be me. Bite me.
Suck my blood. Tell me that you've lived like forever.
Tell me, how your life has been? Nasty? Sexy? Bloody?
Boring it is.

Heal me Dr. Phil, take me to your future.
Kiss me with your cruel intensions. I would love to kiss them.

Oh Hugh, oh Anna Nicole.
Sleep with me and kiss me goodnight.
Take my pictures while I pose in style.
Sexy is your life, what's my word for this life?

You are my water.
But what do you think of me? Am I the at least?
Will you put me in front? Do I have to beg baby?
Guess.

I would love to see you in pain.
You're my favorite drugs.
I really want ti burn you down, I want to take you down.
Real injury, no pain, and you'll see I'm this nasty.
Have you ever thought about me?
I'm going to have your tears dropping.
Looking forwarf to seeing you crying.
Yes baby, I am your monster level six.
I'll dig your hole, it's going to be my pleasure to put your body in.

\

bye.

hey bitch,

im patricia and im monster level 6. I LOVE TO DANCE IN STYLE, and i miss my froyo! no, not that frozen yoghurt.

i love you, monster level 6!

"thanks cia, i'll never forget you. because of you, i did well on my test, and my mom isnt mad, I LOVE YOU. you're the greatest girl i've ever met." - sunday mailman.

awww,,, I LOVE YOU TOO.

oh wait, we do that. boy to girl, girls to girls. the kissing, hugging, and the photos, WE DO THAT IN JUNIOR HIGH baby.

PICTURE DAY.

let's pose in style!

i really really really want to post the others, doesnt mean i forget, but tomorrow is MATH! si gotta go, catch ya tomorrow, kk?

YOU'RE ALL THAT I WANTED.

BUT YOU JUST DON'T CARE, AND NOW THAT WE PARTED.

I NEED TO FEEL YOU HERE.

JOIN ME! ewwjustinbieber.com

i do like justin bieber, her oh wait, his voice, his FACE! his everything, but... HIS SONGS REMIND ME OF THIS SHIT. so knock it off justin. he thinks he's cute, HE IS CUTE?

yea, he is, BUT, KISS MY BUTT.

ILU, J. but the guy who texted me on sunday loves me too. HAH, JK.

joe was gay, i think he still not cute, but his hair!

im not a disney fan kinda stuff thats begging for a new whole life, but im just cheking this guy.

he is BETTER than JUSTIN BIEBER!

but still, justin is cute.

the two men.

i know this guy, we used to be very tight, even though like we were far from each other. he made me smile so wide, he made my heart beated so frekin fast so fast fast fast. we just texted thats all that we did, but that was satisfying, everytime he replied, i smiled, and everytime i was replying his i smiled. i laughed, i ran.

he was my first, and the lasy guy that i had a relationship via texting. that was him. he was my number one. was. WAS.

and i didnt fall in love with him, no. i just didnt. being in love for me isnt having your heart beating fast, you smile and laugh everytime you remember that guy. no.

but for me, personally, being in love is falling for someone unexceptable. someone that i never think i'd waste my time just worrying and remembering him all the time.

but, that was him.

that's the past, and aint coming back. na ah ah ah. so sorry but yeah. and i'd never regret texting him. 2 years ago.

and there was the other one.

he was sweet, he was too sweet, and i'd not be ashamed if he found out that i still like him. i still do. LIKE HIM. i know this might be wrong because i like him, but, i've spent so many days worrying about him. we held hands, we texted, we called. and worried about each other.

we were a couple, i think.

,

and the story about us, it was him that ended it. but someone is pushing my back, thats Ms. M. and i still am not over him.

he was the first guy that, DAMN.

im gonna miss those days.

but anyway, does anyone of you would like to guess what love really is? yes you, what do you say about love?

FUNNY, HUH?

i listen to baby, i remember you, bitch.

i hate you because i hate justin bieber.

oh wait, yeah hell i love justin! but things about justin is breaking and ugh.

sometimes i love this girl that broke my heart right here.

i read her blog oftenly, and i love her! i do do do.

:)

wait, i know i have said nasty things about being a bi, good people will think im joking, i dont know about you, but i'd love to sleep with a man someday (OH GOAT!)

she is nasty, she is cute, she is beautiful, she is adoring and playful.

and she loves everybody, thats a plus!

well, gotta say, she's older than me. but age doesnt talk.

well, i love her, by reading her writings, yes!

but i havent met her in face, i hope she is as lovely and hateful as her writings!

and her hateful writings? they're not that hateful. i love her, that is it.

this is the first time. im getting nicer i guess. thats great, im hoping so.

this part really gets me. especially reminds me of you. I HATE YOU.

HUH, im hating this.

SEX AND THE CITY 2 frekin new stills! I CANT WAIT!

hi, im patricia, im monster level 6, and im a free bitch.

i am not over you.

still not.

i used to be like this little toy. and right now, i really wanna be that toy, again, for another seconds. i think so.

when he left, i kept listening to everybody knows. and now, im listening to not your enemy.

i wish i could get away. away so away.

i didnt cry, i was happy.

maybe, this is the best. just maybe. but, i think somebody knowns the very best. and tats not me. but, im gonna find out. soon.

IMU.

YELLOW JACKET.

hey there, mr hot, LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING YOU TOMORROW.

AH, I LIKE THAT YELLOW JACKET GUY!

cute voice, huh?

and this guy right here, HE GOT MY HEART! DAAYYYMNNN!

i am over YOU.

i've been picking up my little sister from her school.

the school that i had dreamt FOREVER and EVER and EVER.

the school i had cried for, my tears are sold for that little pitiful school.

the school of my dream, whoops, wait, im wrong, the USED TO BE a dream school of mine..

I AM SOOOOOO SOOO FREAKIN OVER YA.

maybe this is what God has planned, and im loving it. LOVE IT GOD. loving your next masterpiece.

and you see, YOU, YOU, not the school but YOU, you could've been a part of His masterpiece, but you left :(

patricia utami saragih says :

You couldve been a apart of a Masterpiece

b i t c h

im a bitch, and i dont know why, i just dont care about anything at all. what people said? shake it off. well, i once almost cried because of what they said, then i moved my seat to adelia. because i was extremely offended. shit.

and i still dont know why this guy get dates. HE SUCKS. and his girl too. ugh, what a nasty-unbelivable-eww couple. i dont hate them, i dont hate people, because hating people aint nice, it is a sin, and besides, hating brings no advantages.

so, i ve been facing this computer for noting for hours. well, no no no, im reading history, hell yeah. i even have a prediction when the earth will be doomed.

thats when the un comes from the west not the east. careful, so watch the sun.

so, okay, i was offended real bd, really like real bad. what he said was very UGH-O-MY-GOAT!

cant face it.

so, at school there is this teacher, okay fine, i admit im suppperrrr active. but doesnt mean i cant be right? I AM HYPERACTIVE, fuck it.

i move a lot, i dance and sing too much, thats because i listen too hundreds of songs. i can remember all the lyrics, and it's not even a sin to move ans sing songs i remember.

NOT A SIN, baby. NA AH.

this teacher, i dont know. hates me maybe? doesnt like me i guess, because i disturb a lot. i disturb my friends and talk too much. well, IM SORRY THEN. SORRY.

so from that moment, friends keep saying and teasing my ass. this what really hurt :

"when are you gonna be normal? you are never normal. BO NORMAL, be normal."

and this other one, really get my ass :

"..... you see, you're a girl but has no ----."

FUCK YOU, man. i dont know why, but right now, this very moment, i feel like, uh ah oh, i feel okay with what they said.

i know it hurt me. hiks.

but the yesterdays let them be.

im reading history. oh well fun.

pucker up kiss my butt. EWW.

this is fun(ny)

demi and joe has amazing(ly stolen my heart)

the lyric is too strong, i love it. demi's voice is amazingly strong ans yet beautiful, the video is too plain but they put a little fun and a little too much water and fish. thats the point. LOVE THE VOICES.

im as active as... but activer.

she is very amazing, her voice, her EVERYTHING. amazing non the less.

HERstory of history was amazing.

diggy came to rock :

dont even forget to download!

lately, i've been reading too much. my eyes have been having some troubles. this morning, they're watery (is it the right english? huh)

and i needed tissues like i was crying.

what's up with that?

im readin the history of indonesia. i dont know why, this is all because of my geography teacher, she told us the story of Ahmad Yani and the other 7 revolution heroes that died because of PKI (Indonesian Communist Party) in east jakarta there, in lubang buaya. she told us, and i was like full of interest because of what she told my and my friends. her stories were like saying : hi, my name is history, and im handsome. i bet you like me.

and yeah hell, i like history. but the thing is, the history that my real history teacher told me, isnt that interesting.

my geography teacher's history, is like TETRIS but funner :D

yes. i love you my geography teacher.

because of her, im surfing the internet, no more because of facebook, but now, because im searching of stuff.

thankyou STANLEY.

THIS IS THE MAD pt. 3

w/ adeliaaaaaa love

this class is hot, imma miss this.

you cant see my face, cause, well, my face is BAD.

fuck yeah alays.

THIS IS THE MAD pt. 2

my sexy lesbian. ahahahaha jk.

my miserable-but-i-love bitchy outfit.

as we know the theme was colorful summer, for me, summer is to get wet, and bitchy. HAH.

MWAH XP

AWW, I LOVE YOU BRII AND NAT!