i miss europe

i miss the shops, the smell, the people, and the things.

i miss the friends, the places, and the palaces.



especially the snow.

i miss the bus, the easy-to-be-mad driver, and Francesco, and also richard-look-alike driver.

i miss fransesco, and also the soccer guys, especially the guy with the braces.
umm, i LIKE HIM!



uhh, shayne ward, the screamer.
hehehehehe.


but, i'd rather not to came bck, cause, EXPENSIVE!
wowo!

is he that far?

i USED to like someone.
a boy, well, a man

he is 4 years no, 3 years older than me.
he is so strong, handsome, good-looking (isn't it the same??), keen on sports, and things.

we used to be real close, but, he is so far, he is not in indonesia.
and i don;t really care about him.
we always text every december.
and i always text him, but he always busy, sports.
yeah right.

ughh, i don;t miss him.

i know his facebook.
but, i am not interested to add him, cause i kow that he wouldn't accept me as a friend.

well, we don;t need a boy like this in this world, ey??
just throw this boy to the black list.

love is..

people those understand the meaning of love are people those are already died, peoples those are selfish and never taste something that contains love in their lives.

so, that's why love never ends.

i don't really get it.
love is unbelievable, and i don't know.
but, love is something but nothing.

well, here is a story about me.
something that just happened to me, a couple that basically never like one another.
me and him, i never like him, then why?

so here is the story :
about 2 weeks ago, he texted me, he said he likes me, do you want to be my gf?
i didn't know what i was thinking, and i said YES.
OH NO.

so, we started everything from the bottom, i was his girl and he was mine.
and i broke him up about 3 or 4 days ago.
the reasons :
1. i had realized that i didn't like him, and still.
2. i can say that he was to possesive. that's why i couldn't be myself around.
3. i wanted to open my real identity, i am patricia, the one that is so mean and so mean. and always likes boys, MORE THAN ONE.
4. i was bored, and i wanted to be free, i aways lied to him, and i didn't want to lie anymore, so, please, sorry.
5. he never gave me some spaces. i felt like i was in prison.



no sad feeling, please.

so that's why.
see, that wasn't love, and i never taste anything that contains love in it.
well, actually, once..

i liked a boy, he is from another school.
he is tall, strong, and cute.
he likes to swim, but he never swims in borobudur club.
i liked him, he always made me smile,
and i liked him, and still.

hehehe.
so girls, careful, don't let boys play your heart.
you should play theirs (no, i was just kidding)
well, this is just liking each other, not loving each other.
just give your love to someone who needs love.
your family.
the need you, and you need them.

so, careful with every step in your life.

P X

i think i like you

i will never say "i love you" to any boy that i hook, date, or like.
cause i don't want to play the "love" word.

anyways, i HAD so many problems.
but, now, i just, umm, my problems are all gone.
except, this guy.
that keeps being sad everytime, and every day.
just making me sick, not sad too.

enough, boy!
move on, life has to move on.

so, this guy...
he is nice, and i will never get bored of talking about him with my girls.
i don;t need him to like me back, i just need him to be in class.
so i can look at him, even tough, i will get bored and kind of like want to see another guy, but, he is fine.

so fine.

i'm single

hehehehe, i know i am such a jerk.
but, i am single.

woohooo!

hey-hey-heyyy, just checking in...

yow, what's poppin?

just checking in.
well, i have lots and lots of things to do.
first i have to type a poem about "love"
uygh, i hate love!

well, i am having a problem right now.
and i don't know how to solve it.
i searched for help, nobody raised their hands.
this is shitty.

okaay, i have a friend.
he is really special, really special.
he always makes me smile, well, i don't want to say his name,.
but, the point is,,,, he is FINE!

sweet chris brown

rihanna is finally fine.
there are no more bruisers on her face.

and see chris brown statement :

“Words cannot begin to express how sorry and saddened I am over what transpired. I am seeking the counseling of my pastor, my mother and other loved ones and I am committed, with God’s help, to emerging a better person. Much of what has been speculated or reported on blogs and/or reported in the media is wrong. While I would like to be able to talk about this more, until the legal issues are resolved, this is all I can say except that I have not written any messages or made any posts to Facebook, on blogs or any place else. Those posts or writing under my name are frauds.”

wanna see the new rihanna, i kinda hate her right now, cause she is so sull of jealousy.
she is still beautiful, no more bruisers.
but the thing is, i gotta search for a new role model...




good for her,,,

my scrapbook.

i have a book.

i have nothing to do with it, so i brought it to school yesterday.
and guess what?
it has become a biodata book.

and the worst thing is (well,the best thing for me is):
there are my friends filling it.
nadya, yohan, felicia, and cindy.
who's next?

i hate this guy, but i like this guy.

UGH.

i hate this world!

why?

1. because today, my iPod is error, and i can't hear anything till the next one hour
2. a guy keep texting me, and giving me questions that i don't wanna answer (fuck you!)
3. and a guy keep texting me, wants me to listen to his sweet words (i know that is sweet, but NOT NOW!)

love is so not in my mind

i never say I LOVE YOU.

i just say i like you. like forever.
well, yeah, forever.

but, i will never say I LOVE YOU to you.
cause, i only say that to my future husband, my future daughter, and future son.


sorry, but, YOUR ENGLISH IS SO WRONG.
and i don't like that.

i like him, i need him, but..

well, of course people always hate the word "but", but of cpurse they love their "butt"

uyh-umm.

okay-okay, just forget it.
never mind.

but, well, listen i have nothing to tell, but basically i have lots to tell.
but this is internet, everybody can see


please RESCUE ME!

okay, this is not a good way to runaway

i turned off my cell phone and decided to not bring that anywhere i go
(good thing if that's right english)

why?
that's because i don't want my own cell phone disturb my day.
once my cell rings, trust me, it will ring forever.

i think i am going to change my number.
well, why can't we just talk face-to-face?
is that so hard??
it's easier!

and now because of you, i hate technology!
(well, except iPod, they're genius!)

why you runaway?
that's because of ***, don't blame me, blame me, and the technology of phones and telecommunication.

shit.

SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE

the film is so amazing, and i'l never get bored of telling this film to the people in the entire world.

first of all, i wanna cry because,
taylor lautner is taken!
huwwaaaa!!!

but, second, i am really proud of THIS WORLD because they can make a really good film.
i always never like indian films, but now, i just LOVE indian films.
but the themes must same like slumdog.
i am a slumdog.
are you??

so ill feel

ill feel, because of a girl, a fiend, it's fine
it's so fi-ne.

but, if it's because of a boy, can you imagine?
i mean, think??

saying love you, or things like those are making me sick.
not lovesick
but sick, like i want to puke.
are you playing my stomach?

everytime he give me an sms, his smss like playing my stomach.
sometimes i wanna puke, sometimes i wanna laugh, and sometimes i wanna die.
and never remember that i am with him.


yeah, this is my dilemma

chris brown is a great man

well, i don't know if this is right or wrong
a lie or a truth
but i read on a web that says : chris brwon wanna make sure that rihanna is OK!

cause chris's biological father says :

“He’s reflecting on this situation,” Brown, 44, a corrections officer, tells PEOPLE in an interview at his home outside Tappahannock, Va. “He’s very remorseful. He’s very concerned about the situation and he wants to make sure that [Rihanna's] okay.“

that is so gentleman.
and what i like is that he is finally can go home, and rihanna is okay!
her granny's said that she is doing fine.
and chris brown, if everybody inthis world hates you because of the "LA INCIDENT"
i will still buy your album.
and i will support you.
and you will still have a fan
and i am going to be rihanna's fan to.
she is my role model, please.

your biggest and biggest fan,
patricia.

you can't hit me, but you can give me yiour number just like that "girl"
no, that thing i was just kidding.

i love you, FRANK WOODLEY & COLIN LANE

the funniest ones
the cutest ones
the smartest ones

and everybody loves frank woodley.
i love LANO & WOODLEY
and also, i love COLIN LANE!!

and everybody loves colin lane.

and i guaratee you all will never get bored of watching LANO & WOODLEY.

the AUStralians!

love'em, love'em!!



i LOOOOVVVEEEE THEM!

we miss you mitzy

our lovely friend, maria laurensia angelica mitzy hanjani sunandirjaya
we miss you so much.
we're missing you!!

mitzy, your name is in my scrapbook!
mitzy, you're my best friend, our best friend!
mitzy, you don;t have to care about that rubbish guy!
mitzy, you gotta go home



we MISS YOU!

and ACTION!

want to see how good i act??!
see me tomorrow at school from 06.45-14.00
i'll see you will say :wow! to me.
because i can act that good.

so, see me tomorrow, and you'll see how bad i am.
not bad as "bad", but, bad as a bad person.
a really not good friend.


i'l treat people differently.

oh-yeah, i am a slutty bitch.

you guys have know that i am taken.
but yesterday, i went to borobudur hotel (well, club actually)

when i was walking across the corridor i saw a boy, wearing blue short pants, and a blue tee.

and i think at that moment the time felt sooooo slow.
and i can feel my heart is beating faster-and-faster.

we looked eye-to-eye.
and never stopped.
until his partner yelled to him and said : "come on!"

but, let me tell you something.
at that moment i totally forgot that i have a boyfriend.

WOWHH!!
hahahahahahahahah!
and i would love to meet that guy again.
and felt the same situation as i met him yesterday.

the explanation why i say myself a bitch :
because, i almost fell for a guy, when i am still a girlfriend of a boy.
and then i always tell lies to him (well, no this thing i was just kidding)
and if you don;t want to trust me anymore.
i don't care.
i need trusts but, as long as i have faith, i don't really need any trust from people those are not so pricey.
doesn't mean that i can buy a person with money, but, pricey means, someone that i can really trust.
like my best friends.

and yeah, if you want to say that i am a freaking slutty bitch.
IT'S UP TO YOU.

i'm a mess

you can say i am messier than my bedroom.
i am so messy.

that's because a really heavy pressure that i am facing with.
i am so depressed.
i am afraid to go to school.
i am so insecure, and so easy to be mad.
i ain't crazy, but i believe that there's something wrong with my body and mind.
my life is so bad.
well, not really bad.

this saturday is Valentine's day.
well, i have to make a fucking fake smile.
and i am ready to make that fucking fake smile.

i am so fucked up.
i was strong, independent, and never cry.
now, i am insecure, bad, and a liar!

this life is so not fucking fantastic.
lily allen : easy to say.


the world is having bad situation right now, lately.
1. i am taken (shit!)
2. i saw a boy, and i think i'm in love (no, but, yes,,,,no)
3. rihanna got hit by chris brwon
4. chris brown got arrested by the police, and well, he's a great man, people say, but, RUDE.


like i said, I AM SO FUCKED.
yeah-yeah, i AM SO HUMAN.

i am so dissapointed.

i am so dissapointed of my life.
but, first of all, congrats, cyn!
you're finally taken!

but, what i want to talk about is my life.
my lies to him.
and my miserable life.
i have been lying to myself, my friends, my family, and my "mine"

lately, i feel my body is so heavy.
and i have realized, that is not because of my weight, but my sins.
i ain't a saint, i am a sinner.
this life is shitting me.
i can;t focus on my subjects.
and my friends just busy on their lives.
and everybody is forgetting me.

i love my life, i love my God.
i love my friends, i love my family.
but, i am so confused right now.
i am so-not-ready-for-anything.
i don't even care about my teacher teaching some wrong stuff to us.
i am so sick.
and ill.


ugh, i need help.

i am so (super) jealous or i want to be like them.

who doesn't know chris brwon and rihanna these days???
they've been dating for about a year now.
and i am so super jealous, because they look so "click"

i have a boyfriend, and i want me and him like that.
but, just a little bit fatr.
yeah, that's good enough.

hi, supers!

for real, i don't really want to post something or anything to this blog.
i am not really in the blog mood.

my "yee" keep texting me with sweet words.
no, that's not good, i hate that for real.
and i am not good at lying.

why i must lie to him?
that's because he keep texting me.
to possessive, if i can say.
to controlling, if i have to say.

i don't want to go to school.
i want to stay at home.
i want to hold my bolster.
and sleep underneath my blanky.

now i know how to run.

if you someone special keep texting you.

go to your computer, listen to your favorite music
or read my songs :
1. Crack A Bottle - Eminem, Dr. Dre, and 50 Cent
2. Amazed - Vanessa Hudgens ft. Lil Mama
3. On & On -Nicole Scherzinger
4. My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson
5. Bad Girl - Rihanna & Chris Brown

then you thinking about him, maybe just a bit of it, WILL GONE!

hear what you are saying.

guess that i don't really like him at all.
but just wait for the situation to go away.

and then, i will feel the same way as he is.

i want a break free.
now the time is going to be really different.
i will be beside him always, and until we are apart, i will be the girl that is going to be beside him always.

well, i don't know.
maybe tomorrow or NOW, he is giving me an sms saying : hi, are you sleeping yet? what are you doin'?

shit!
please, gmab!!!
go away or i will be the one that will go.

i gotta tll my sister, she will probably be happy about this.

but, i am going to ask her about something.

i really hate this, i really do.

no, this is not about that boy.

but, i want to be free.
i want to go again, i want to ride along one more time.
no, as many as i want.

so this is not my time to have someone special.
but, i already have one.

and he keep texting me ALL THE TIME.
i just want to scream out loud to him saying : PLEASE MY boy! GIVE ME A BREAK!

yes, i am taken.
well, i hate this, but, yeah, i am taken.

a boy.

HIS NAME is well, his name is not important
but, i hate him, i really do.

he is my classmate and he likes to pinch me and his pinches are so hurty!

i used to like him as a friend but now, i just want to bring a really sharp knife and kill him.

today, this morning, i cried, because he hit my head, and it was fucking hurt!.

well, his teeth are so messy
he is not even handsome, her is scarier than my dogs.
and he is uglier than my grandma's pigs
FOR REAL!

my friend must know about this guy, he is so not handsome until the teachers at my school are scared to die to meet him.
(no, i am kidding)


well, the point is, i hate him.

STOP DISTURBING ME AND MY FRIEND.
BACK THE FUCK OFF!
YOU BITCH!

the book for a friend

well-well-well,
as you know that i am in the computer lab in my school.
we are making a book for my friend
her name is cynthia.

she is my best friend, and the book is really funny.
us (me, benarivo, brigitta, irwan, and ursulla)
the book is about her, well, no, it'sd about somebody else.
that is related to her.
real close (i am making my devil face)

well, i have another thing to tell.

"if you wannabe my lover, you gotta get with my friends."

school.

i am at my school right now.
in ther computer lab.

we are actually doing and thinking about the design and layout about the year book and the school's magazine.

but, the eight graders are having sex education.

well,i will have that later, on the twenty-first.
the next 2 weeks.

but, for me.
i don't really need to have a sex education, my friends said that we dont't have to learn anyhting more about sex. cause, ummm, i don't know.


well, let's talk about something else.

let's do some self-check!

1. i still can't control my anger.

2. i still eat a lot at night.

3. i can't keep my secrets by myself, i want to tell my bestie, but i am afraid.

4. friends are friends, best friends are your best people, so don't waste them by dating them

"love never ends."

yeay! i have received the greenlight

i have talked to my best friends.
in scare bugs basically.

i told them that i like "yee"
and they said, it's fine.
really fine!

in fact, thery said that we should be together.
blue-red, -blue-red.

i like this guy, and i don't want anybody disturb the relationship between me and him.

he (well, the thing is, i like him and there's nothing else i can say)


"there's nothing else i can say, eh eh-eh eh, i should have never felt that way."

X Patricia

yeawh!!

well-well-well

i have so much to tell, i don't even know where to start.

well, what about me and "yee" together.
well, we are not coupled, because i have realized that i am not really interested in coupled, but i am interested in hooking up.
yea-yeaa.
i like him, as a friend, and as a big brother.
he is even better thatn "itty"
well, i don't even give any hopes in "itty"
well, we have talked a lot to each other lately, but, i am not interested to like him.

second,
i am officially happy (not at all)
i am having a fight with my sister as usual.
but, a sister at school said that, yeah, we can be cured.
and i think that i am cured, well, not at all.
but, i feel a little skinnier and well, not fresher.

well, that's all i have to say.

"throw your hands up in the air of you know he love you."

i hate malaysia

arrest me, you can arrest me.
the police can arrest me, and feel free if they want to arrest me.

for what?
teasing malaysia?

yeah-yeah, the country that wrote indonesia as a bad country in 6 of their newpapers.

the country that tried to steal my culture.
i know, and we all know that indonesia is ot really good at keeping somehting as their own.
but, we can take it back, because whatever it is, it's ours.
OURS, if i can it outloud.

eah, i hate malaysia, i just want to erase my memories when i was in that country.
this is not about religion, but this is about keeping something.

hey, they almost killed our indonesians people in malaysia.

in one case, one person got hit, got raped, and things like that.

look IN THE MIRROR, people!!!

the material girls and the competitive competitors

well, you know the gals that i've talked about.

yeah, the ones those love to shop, love to spend their money.
ad adore the BOD and THE BOM

bod : bank of dad
bom : bank of mom.
(i know, i pushed it too hard)

well, they're my friends, and guess what, i kinda like them in some ways.
they're nice, in fact.
and i like them, they're so nice to talk to.
and yep-yep, i learn my lesson.

guess i can't pick my frieds anymore.
they're all nice.
from the poor ones, to the rich ones.
from the handsome and beautiful ones, to the losers and ugly ones.

they're nice and good.
and i just can't believe that eah-yeah, nothing else i can say.
and then about the competitive competitors.


they're soooooo unbelievably obsessed with the competition.
well, i have to admit that i am jealous.
but, please, nerdies, have a life.


(have obviously, i am so sorry for the mistakes that i did, exactly with the english)

well

i love frank woodley and colin lane.

and also, well, forget it.

i am happy today.
today is tuesday, and nothing special happened.
well, i am still waiting, and waiting.

i miss my cousins.
my andre, david, natalia, chika, karen, aurelia, clara, eva, gloria, josia, gaby, and everybody else.

we're like the destroyer of the world.
we conquer everything.
and do you what we usually wait for??
our parents, aunts, and uncles to be mad at us.

yeah.

well, i am not at my house now, i am in my dad's office.
and i need to see something, but i got nothing to do and nothing to tell, so i fill this thing.

well keep reading cause i have something to tell about material girls and the competitive competitors.

i love today!

well, i hate to tell you about the opening but, i've told you that i don't like "itty" right???

well, now, he is broken heart.
his heart is broken.

wahhhahahaaa, i am just like an evil, but i like it!
i like to see him sad and cry(well, he's not crying outside, but inside!)

well, told you he will be sad someday!

well, i am so tired, good thing there's nothing serious tomorrow.
but still STUDYING IS IMPORTANT
even i never study well.
but, my scores are good except in math and chemistry

yeah absolutely,
have a good night..