out of my heart.

i had my final test today.
quite hard. but, yeaa. i am just afraid that i might fail. huah.
afraidy, afraidy.

and then, people got mad at me. i wanna cry. huha. i wish you were me. but tomorrow i am heading to LA. i dont wanna be you. ha ha. :)

so, i chatted wiht my friend. and still do! ahah.
well, this is shocking, but i just confessed my biggest secret to a boy.
ma be it's wrong, but who cares?

we didnt watch TF2 today, but we did this.

HAHA. i bet you're jealous. haha.

welcome to the world :)

jealous muchh?

i love you guysss!

g'day mate.

hai hai. hello. gutteg tan. bonjour.
okaay, enough for the good morning.

so, what have you made for breakfast?
i am so hungry. i havent eaten anything.
huaha. i am just so excited for tomorrow. this is good. but sad.
i miss my friends so much!
i gotta tell you, yes!

i miss my school. so, the funny thing is, yesterday, i was packing my clothes in my room , and then, i saw my uniforms were hanging. uhh, i missed wearing uniforms.
and still do -__-.

we (me, my brother, sis, cousins) today are about to watch TF 2.
im excited, you?

t-h+u.r,s=day!

well, you know what i mean, right?
hah, i just cannot wait for thursday to come.
i am gonna head to LA. i so cant wait.
but, i also cant wait for tomorrow to come.
first, i am gonna go to the cinema to watch a movie. wel i dont know, maybe we're aout to watch Drag Me To Hell again, one more time. waw, that film is so scary.

second, i am going to have my final test tomorrow. isn't it wonderful? ah ha.

third, my cousns are gonna come today, and MAYBE they are going to spend the night in my house. huah! totally, we are not going to sleep. we're gonna watch movies, play computer, surf the internet, and definitely, gonna spend our time talking about changes, life, families, and school. huah. i love you guysss.
i miss them so much, David Natalia and especially Keren.
her name is really KEREN, but,, actualy for you it's Karen.
well, in bahasa, Keren means COOL. so, she is cool. ahah. she is CUTE, too cute!

better now, or never.

huahk. i am freaking bored right now. oh, believe me, i wish, i were you. but, na ah, i am thankful.
okay, enough.

so listen, i just bought a magazine. filled with thousands of informations about movies, especially, TRANSFORMERS : THE REVENGE OF THE FALLEN.
well, i have read those meaningful articles, but i just dont wanna finish reading it now, because i have no books to be read when i am during my flight then. huh.
-_-"

i know, i am just so bored.
me and my mom are about to head to a mall. we are gonna buy adaptor, mm, converse shoes or we cal sneakers, yea, and then, well, i dont know.
let's just wait of rmy next story. ha ha.
love you guys.

xoxo.
wait, so, what connects the title of the post to what i just talked about?
huah. whatever.

"him"

you know the guy that i have loved? "him".
well, he is too dreamy and too good for me.
but it's not a wrong thing to talk about him, right?

he was in the same class as me. delapanC. or we we can just call it 8C.
so, "him" was in the same class as mine, he was nice, kind, polite, and funny.
until this one thing that i did. and made him thought about something real bad.
he thought that i liked him. well, yes, thats the truth. but think about a guy found out that you like him, that's humiliating and embarrassing, right?

and then, i came back, we didnt talk to each other at first, and still didnt talk.
he never responded things i said to him.
his answers were just : oh, umm, yes, okay okay, whatever.
and often, he even didnt respond anything.
i liked him so much. i cried many times for him. i knew that crying wont make himlike me. but, i liked him, and still do.

i really like him, i do. and then i found out about this little thing about him.
i guess he wont like me anyway. that news was very sad and shocking.
well, i cant tell what that news is. but i wont forget it.

i like him. and i wont forget it. the same class, huh? hah.
the thing is, i like him, and i get hurt.
it is so hurty to like him. why?
well, he doesnt like me. thats first.
and then, he is not even interested to talk to me, i know that because of the way he sees me, he is bored, uninterested. thats second.
in class, everytime i asked him to talk about something, he didnt care about what i said. thats third.
but, wait, suddenly, i remembered all that stuff.
huha.
still, he is too dreamy..

this is my LOVELY schoool!

Santa Maria Junior High School!

this is the basketball field, FYI, my school is not really big, but i bet you will, you go run 7 times around this basketball field, i bet you are tired, i guess that will make that basketball field BIG to you. and then, that tall and HUGE building, those are our classes. i miss 8C. so much!
if you go to my school, in the morning, around 6, you'll see us, doing our homework. i know that's wrong, but we do wrong things, always, all the time.

i love you SanMar, and i am proud to be a SanMarian!
soooo muuccchh!!! huaaa, i miss my school.

change.

i am not a super hero. i wanna be different. i dont copy others. and i let others copy me, even though, i am not very sure a person will copy me. well, it's not a wrong thing to hope right?

i can feel everything, i can hit people, punch them right in the face, kick them right in the butt, hurt their feelings, pray to God, do wrong things, go to the church, play with others, and at the end of the day, we will always say : Lord have mercy.
we always do, dont we?

still, i wanna be different. but being different it's not always good. sometimes, we forget who we were. we were good, and then, gone mad.
i have gone mad. i am crazy. and i am proud to be crazy. as long as i can still make my mom and dad smile.
i say no to bad things, even at the end, i'd rather do that bad thing, than just sitting around like a fool.
i say yes to good things, and at the end, i thank myself because i have taken that decision. i love myself.

change. do you love yourself?

Lady GaGa rocked MuchMusic Awards!

tweets so much?

at first, ohh, i was so excited about the idea of having a twitter account.
but, until now, i havent updated my twitter. huah.
it's exciting, right?
i can know what demi lovato, rihanna, alicia keys, and others are doing.
but, do they read my twitter also?
well, do they read OUR twitter page?, blahblah, no, i guess so.
well, i dont care.

besides, i am not really in the mood of filling anything, or saying what i am doing on twitter.
i am bored, i need more friends in my houseee!

news, what am i doing, waw, i am BORED!

i was just checking some stuff on the internet, and found these pictures.
i like, and usually watch Wizards of Waverly Place, but, i'd rather watch Law & Order : SVU than watch WOWP. bleerrghh.
too TEENy.
that's why. :DD

but, probably, you gals and guys gonna love this picture :

Rosalie, Esme, Carlisle, Edward, Emmett, ALICE!, and Jasper are back! cannot wait to see their acts on New Moon in November.

my cousin is with me, at my house, and we are very bored. we just spent times playing playstation, riding bikes, eating french fries, and CHOCOLATES!
the thing is, my dad has gone back from a country, and he brought sooo many chocolates, i swear, i am gonna get fatter and fatter everyday.

i am downloading Demi Lovato's movie. Princess Protection Program. 2 hours remaining. huah.
B+O-r-i-Ng.

believe me, i am unbelievable.

Raina, Michelle (uhh, miss her!), me, and a boy namde Dion.
huh, i am so mean.

Jogja, i miss those days.

haha. grafitti.

so, on facebook there is this application, named grafitti.
so, once i drew a grafitti for felicia, my friend in school. (gosh, i miss her and my friends)

i made this, quite miserable :

and then, after that she drew for me too, it's gooo-good :

thank youu. ahah :D

what we did in Tzu Chi.

this is what we did :

1. we HAD FUN!
2. we saw, we took our own trash that we have thrown away.

you should have been there, it was a huge total fun. i know, the pictures explain all. but, you shold have seen what we did. we did lotsa stuff.
we untrashed the trashed place!
Cinta Kasih Tzu Chi School. a school, a place for lotsa people, where people are taught to spread love not just educations. where the students are incredibly polite and unbelieveable. where religons are not viewed. they dont care what you are, they dont care how fat or thin you are, they dont care how rich and poor you are, but, when you get there, you are same. we are people.
they are one from a few that tries to fight against the global warming.

we've shown what we did. what have you done?

smart lily, SMART!

i love this Fck you video!

these are my favourite men.

AVENGED SEVENFOLD

Matt Shadows, Johnny Christ, SYNYSTER GATES!, The Rev, Zacky V.

a christmas in bandung.

Gloria, Gaby, Aurelia, Eva.


the saragihs and the sinagas. hang around, eat, chat, and having fun!

got a new haircut.

because i went to waterbom 2 days ago. i dont like my new blacker skin. ha ha.
so, my mom pushed me to do some changes with my body.
my mom, lovely mom, made me did some little spa with my body.
i did some do0-it-youself hair spa, and i put some body scrub around my body.
well, mom's often wrong, but i felt great! my body is better.
huaha. thanks momo, you are my superhero.

and then, i bought a batik. and i really loved it, and still loving it until now.
and also, i got a new haircut, now, from fake-glamor, i am camilla belle wannabe.
well, especially for you, let's just waittt and see :DD

my two superb superstars!

Katy Perry

Lady GaGa

i love yuu :D ha ha.

i just read my friend's blog. he says himself as a nerd boy. so yea, i just read a nerd's blog. his blog is quite cool, almost cool, i guess. and i love it because he wrote some little stuff talking about me. made me feel like a bighead, i love that feeling. huaha. i always do.

i saw this picture of Taylor Swift. i loved it, and i think i wanna share it.

so, talking about boyfriends again. huahm. Oh no, let’s just change it. What do you want to talk about?? i am bored. and i am boring. yes, i am proud to be a really boring person. i cant make you feel "high", cause i dont really like to get high. i'd rather get down. and i'm not sure you know what i am talking about. it's alriiight, i dont either.
:D

do you know how much i love my heart and my crush(es)?

as much as this :

as much as Taylor Swift loves her guitar. thats much enough i guess so. well, i love my heart. without this very heart, i cant love those cute boys, i cant love "him", i cant love my lovely and amazing also incredible family and friendsss, and especially, i cant love YOUUU!
so, thats why. huh. i miss my sister so much. i miss my friends sooooooooooo much! loving my friends-xoxo!