boys boys boys

i wanna go to club borobudur and swim in the swimming pool.
sitting on the terrace and watch people watching tennis or listening to poddy.
hahah. i miss my poddy. and btw, poddy is going to be used by my friends and i as a helper to search for some good and fun music.
poddy will guarantee that he will satisfy the students' flavour kinda music.
hah, if that's the right english.
and i am hoping so. he will be used for the class meeting event. on june 6th.
i cant wait. sooooo cannot wait.

oh, and btw, HELLO JUNE! AND BYE2 MAY! SEE YOU NEXT YEAR!
haha, it's a new month.

oh, i realize that i am not talking about boys. well, i like these 2 guys.
they are totally NICE! and there is one unique thing about them.
one.
guess it. haha, i bet you can.

i am opening my email right now. hah, i hope there's nothing new.
haha. and lately, i am not really in the mood of playing facebook.
i know, maybe i am sick or something. hope so.

oh, lately too, i have been dreaming about me getting a cancer. HUAH!
what about it? and last night i had a really strong headache and i cried all night long.
my eyes were very hurty last night. for real.
and last night as well, i cried in the bathroom. i laid on the floor and cried for like fifteen minures. it was very embarrassing. i was embarrassing myself in front of myself and those ants and mice (kidding.)
but, i was just watching The Secret Life of Bees and then suddenly i cried and i needed a shoulder to cry on, but i didnt fine any. so i went to the bathroom and laid on the floor.
the floor was really cold, and the floor was like hitting my face, body, and my ass.
but i didint give a damn, i only cared about my eyes.
and the tears that i have wasted. the tears that have gone out from my very eyes to my cheeks and to the nose and also mouth.

tasting my own tears, funny and hurting at the same time. when my tears fell into my mouth was very "something", those tears made my mind replayed all the things and memories that made me cry.
i cried. cried.
oh. sweet Jesus.