read, read, read

Just live and love your life.

It’s not as easy as you think, but keep moving on. I’m sure you’ll find a way.

just watched Bruce Almighty. AMAZING!

wildly funny and incredibly hilarious.

you should totally watch it. better than Evan Almighty.

Evan Almighty is Evan Baxter in Bruce Almighty.

sooo, it has a connection.

Just You and I.

i dont know. probably, i am just really in like with this guy.

i cant say that i am in love, cause i have already been in love. with another guy, his name is "ehm"

yah, thats the one.

and btw, love, it's just toooo fast.

well, see you in a while.

just blink and walah! i'm here, and still here.

loveloveloveloveYOU.

XOXO.

my lovvvly bottle.

haha. you just cant see those lovely signs.
my bottle is signed by :

Alvin

Rosa

Yohan

Kecil Busuk

Brigitta

Janice

Felicia

Stanley

Vania

Jesson

Daniel

Zena

Edbert

Cindy

Angelyn

Mitzy

Ursulla

and then, there is my sign. thanks you guyyss. you are amazing.
this adorable bottle, i will keep it, forever.
makasih, ya :DDPPCCVVBB

like the clouds you, drift me away.

i never wanna see you cry.
lyrics. huah. those things supposed to be told by men to women.
well, now men are so extremely girly. i hate men.
except for this one, uh, wait, three guys.
NO! i dont like them. i love them as friends.

i read lady gaga's twitter page yesterday. she said : stop leaking on my motherfucking videos.
i think she's mad, the paparazzi video is supposed to be released on june 3rd, but fans, they are uncontrollable.
ha ha. just like me. but i never push things to be mine. never.
what for? useless.

i wanna watch watchmen, but too bad, i have promised to myself not to go to any cinemas until transformers 2 : the revenge of the fallen being released.
YEAY! i just cant wait. soooo cant wait.
june 24th.
june 24th!

i just found out that the boy that i like is back. chris! no, i was just kidding.
the boy that i like is in my class. you crazy?
he's fine, nice, cute, funny, incredibly headstrong (i love it!), and you know, he like to "well this is biggy."

well, gotta go and search for some new things. i wanna download another lano and woodley. so seee yaaaa.

and btw, i am very very very sorry. lately, i have been writing even though to even tough. so WRONG!
so, forgive me, peeeeeps.
:CC so sorrry.

I CANT BLAME me.

woaw, life is hard, ya?
yea, i am sick of this thing.
"people like you make me sick."
i say, people like myself make me sick. so sick.
probably, i cant go to sleep today.
my mind has been filled by problems, songs, problems, and please anybody HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am unlike you, my friend.

dont wanna be left behind? read books and watch tv.
wanna have friends? change ways of you life.
wanna be me? KEEP DREAMING!

i am a girl, who like to chat. rude things and words are my besties.
fat and eating are my usual magazines. fake friends are like the pillows that i always kick and hit. and to be frank, i wanna assault a person. each day one.
HUA HUAH. couquering everything that i am surrounding.
that's me. but if you hit me with phones and texts, i am dead.
you dont do this and that, i might hate you secretly.
yeah, yea, thats me baby. thats patricia.
patricia that you've been reading.

all i am saying is, be yourself. keep hating things that you hate. dont fake it.
dont make plots of your life. not fun! every things those are scheduled are not fun and boring!
just enjoy everything, from the stories, and stuff, also the rocks that you may and always step on on you life.
and when you are in the future, you look back, you'll laugh.
:DDD

and believe in God, dont listen to music like marilyn manson singing. theyre just shits that marilyn found in and on the streets.
marilyn is disgusting, look at him, EEK!

and btw, if you wanana say bad words. say it OUTLOUD.
and if you just can, make a blog, say everything that you wanna say.
in english, anglais, francais, brazil, portuguese, i dont know, whtever.
its up to you. you wanna say fuck, shit, i dont know, all of them, say it.
if you wanna, you can break the keypad also.
if you hate your life so much, but dont blame youself, dont blame God, dont blame yourself.
secretly, blame others.
BUT, dont make that blame that you have pointed become hate-ness.
okaay?
but, if you still wanna be me? i am just saying KEEP DREAMING.
but, probably, who wants to be me?
huahm

new new new newss.

haha, i am just incredibly bored of school.
i dont know. my hair lately falls everytime. i maybe have adapted breast cancer.
huahhua. hoping so. hoping so.
so that i have no future and my future is clear, i will be dying inside a small little box, and a rock yelling : the biggest loser of all, the failure, the bastard, and the bitch, maria patricia utami saragih :1995-2009.
that would be the sweetest thing that people would have done to me.
HA HA.

i wanna see you guys. someday, probably. i'll throw a party.
probably. definitely. absolutely. that's enough.
i am listening to fuck you - lily allen.
funny song. so funny.

and you guys, listen. you must probably think that i am rude, racist, disgusting, and incredibly ugly and stuff.
you know what, yea right. you are right.
totally true. good guess.
what ever. my mind is just so full right now.
i will have my progress test today.
at five. HUEKS!
it's just really distasteful. i wanna go to school, fuck myself up, go home with good mood, and die happily on bed.
i wanna die fast, like right now, people can kill me, and they can kill me from my back, so i can be like casper. that little cute ghost that children like me used to believe in.

i wanna be in a different world. just like keri's album. what i am talking about is just incredibly stupid. this life is ruff.
ugh, i am rude. just so rude right now.

yeay, yeay.

i am trying and learning how to speak francais.
huehahah. and now, i am back in the mood of twittering AGAIN!
yeay, baby, yeay!
i am so happy. because today is may 29th.
and june is coming! you know why i am happy right?
there are two reasons. not gonna tell. :DD
find it by yourself would be so much fun. i guess so.
i talked and chatted with the boy that i like. yeay haha.
and i received a bad real bad news about myself.
i am now and my friend are now being betrayed by the same person that i told you before.
i dont know, hes just never gets bored. EEK.
patricia est torturee.
yes, by him and by school.
school is a little whore, but i love this little whore.
i love my school. santa maria JHS.
you should go there. the tests, freak teachers, good techers, lovely friends, real friend, backstabbers, losers (ME!), cliques (NO!), bitches, and more.
you will find everything there. and if my teacher reads this, i am soooo dead.
HAHA.

i watched a couple of sketches anf videos of lano and woodley just by the time i arrived.
and then, i played yelle songs, leona lewis's, and mky favorite : THE PRODIGY.
they are just so cool, arent they?

i love electro rock. not just cheap rock like avenged sevenfold. but i love avenged sevenfold as well. they are cool and rude. with their unbelievable lyrics.
listen to these :
critical acclaim
a little piece of heaven
and my fav : unbound (the wild ride)

talking about music. i reallu enjoy lady gaga, but my favorite rock is the prdigy OF COURSE! and avenged sevenfold.
have you heard and seen marilyn manson's new album? HOEKS. he is dead to me.
he is disgusting.

bring my t**s home.

whoopss. i am trying to be polite here.
well, i know i am incredibly impolite. if i am polite, well there is something wrong with me then.
haha.

why i said that?
because i am just incredibly bored of doing some shitty tests and stuff like those.
i am sick of school.
but, i love school too. tis is some kinda my not consistent thing. how's that? is this even the right english?
oya, lately, i am not really in the modd of wtiring things in english. even touhg i have lots to say. but, i have to practice on my indonesia and bahasa.
because my indonesia is getting worse and worse. haha.
bad, ya?

i have got a new phone!
have i told you?
faky phone philadelphia (gosh, what a name?!) is gone. i think its not going to go back to me, so my mom bought me a new phone.
i named it electrica.
and now, i have ePODDY! electrica and poddy.
you know who poddy is, right?
if you dont know, then you just have to go back to my archives and look for some garbage there, and see about poddy.
happy searching!

from yesterday until saturday, i am facing with exams and tests.
they are all fucking me up.
so once again bring my tits home.
huh, boring.

wanna see old, young, and blahblahblah

i used to like them so much, and then i realized, ARE YOU FREAKING INSANE?!! I LIKED THEM??!!
they are old, hansome, pretty, but BUTTKISS!
i wanna kick them all in the butt, oh yes, girls, including the jonas and the sprouses.
old who try to be young. PLEASE! dakota can get more money than them by playing a kid in movies, and them? getting small fans and nothing. small money.
doesn't mean that i have enough money, but, i just dont like them.
they are just showing off! i swear! i dont like the way the act. nobody of them can act!
look at chris brown, and look at sterling knight.
they are at the same age, but, so sad, sterling still so kiddy and chris has gotten tattoos all over his body.
look at dakota fanning, look at selena gomez, fucking miley, and demi. yes! dakota is younger than them! but look! she is so grown up and good!
(and yes! i am a hater of the disney channel stars. for real, they are so inmature!)

about courage.

courage, huh?
i have enough bravery to show the show that i am independent and yeah, yeah, boring.

i'll kill you, because you make me like and love you.
this feeling is nothing but something, i think so.
i like you, and i hope this is real. even tough i never serious on and in relationships. uh, believe me.
:))

don't you ever take it seriously.

i am extremely tired.
so tired, but i'm not trying to exaggerate anything.
i saw lotsa buskers when i was in a bus, going to my english course.
i posted a word saying : ePODDY!
cause i just love that word. electrica and poddy!

hey, btw, have you made a twitter acc?
i'm lonely. the only friend that i know is stanley.
so make yourself one and add me : www.twitter.com/patriciakiddo
add me! follow me, peeps! ha ha.

but lately, i'm not in the mood of twittering. LAME and BORING at the same time. i don;t know why people love twitter.
but hey, still add me, will ya?

so, i will start my real post : do i love you, baby?
so, i love this guy, as a friend.
a really amazing friend. he is nice, cute, and i just wanna kick his butt.
i like him very much, but still as a friend. but i dont know, the feeling of me thinking about him is just too funny and twisted.
hah, just like lyrics. twisted and funny at the same tiem.
i might say that every feeling is funny, but this one, i can bet, this feeling, STUCK ME!
help, help, i just like this one guy.
but i'm afraid to show it. or i have already shown it?
huh, dont know. let the time, show me.

your mouth, it's just too big.

yep, this is some kinda promotion for sure.

ha ha.

because, there is my picture. you see, if you mess up with me, your ass are going to be kicked.

real good.

www.bigmouthed.blogspot.com

no can do, baby.

je veux te voir, when you're watching porno movies.

hah, i'm just really tired. i just studied, opened-closed-opened-closed math excersices.

because, the day after tomorrow, just say, on friday, i will have a math test.

UGH!

i wanna chat with him. huh, extremely miss him.

probably, he's not online. sucks.

i wanna cry. why this life is so dramatic? but the thing is, there is nothing to be acted.

for real, i am just confused. think about it.

i am happy! look at my facebook profile. there is his face!

i likeeee you, so muchh!!

what a day.

there are people, they are trying to ruin my life. and that's because HE is afraid to only go by himself, okay, bring it on bitches.
i'm not afraid of you. (kalo cuma berani main gerombolan doang. bencong2 juga bisa kyk gitu)

i had fun and tomorrow probably, i'm gonna have more than i had today.
probably, i am not going to sleep early. usually i sleep at 1 a.m or 2.
but today probably, i'm not gonna sleep. i hope so. i wanna do a movie run.

f-f-f-fun. i wanna have some fun. i'm so depressed. just found out that i got a really bad score on my accountant. UGH! i have to study with my own teacher on friday.

gotta go. i have to study.
ERGH, I HATE SCHOOL.

huh. sdih deh.

gue baru aja browsing2 hal2 bodoh.
just found out. hes taken!
GEE! yasudlah, biarin.

tomorrow = shitty.

i just called my best friend, nadya. told her that tomorrow is going to be incredibly ruff.
well, well, well, i hope not.

huh, there is a bad news for me, but i bet it's a good news for you.
i really wanna use the word : no can do.
mean no you can't. well, i just wanna use it.

tomorrow is going to be a new day. and i'm really tired. i have to study, i have 2 tests tomorrow.
purrr purr, i sound like a cat. i gotta stop shitting myself.

well, they are shitting me good.
i sound very very incredibly mean and rude. kids, dont say these words at home, of you'll get kicked out.

i'm depressed and tireed. well, gotttaaa gooo peeeepss.
love you, God loves you too. have a good life. :PP
:PDDDDPPPP (stupid expressions.)

oh. yeah, i forgot.

i don't k now. those words just came to my mind. so i typed it down.
yea, so weird.

i have to be ready for the exams. HAHHH! i hate school.
school is a cool and cozy place but when it connects with the subjects?
huh, count me out!

i am broken heart. wait, no. i'm not. i am happy. so incredibly happy.
hapes, hevs, gapes, dapes, cpaes, (what am i talking about??)

bad bad bad bad bad news!
my mama and i are going to buy a new phone for me.
BAH! no! i dont wanna a new phone.
but, i have already had a name and decided to name my new phone this :
little electrica.
hah, what a pushy name.

i call it that.

hey, what's going on?
i hope you enjoy your times.

look at me, i'm still laughing for frank woodley and i am falling in love with battlefield.
the song is so-my-situation.
you should see me, and i should sue you for seeing me.
i'm just incredibly depressed lately.
just went to a book store yesterday and i saw that the buru quartet is now on sale!
i'm so glad that they are selling the buru quartet.
in bahasa of course. too bad, i have already owned them all. those 4 books.
they are amazing and hooking me up. not just the books the writer.
the amazing and unforgettable pramoedya ananta toer.
gosh, he is amazing. he amazed everybody i can bet.

i just found out many days ago, that lil, luone, or either the ones that i used to know and like love NIKE. yes, they love nike. uh, whatever.
noo, he's not in my school.
waw, i gotta stop talking about my school.
my school is filled by wackos. wackos, freak-os, and YOU! jerks.
i know, i'm not supposed to talk meanly, but, i'm sorry, they are mean.

i can't wait for transformers 2 to come. i et that movie is going to be incredibly and extremely satisfying!

this is right!

the consultant from my school gave me and told me to take the BIG FIVE personal test.
my result was ENFP!
and i took another test of the big five personal test the result is :

Ta-dah, your personality type is ENFP!

Extraverted (E) 82%	Introverted (I) 18%
Intuitive (N) 68%	Sensing (S) 32%
Feeling (F) 75%	Thinking (T) 25%
Perceiving (P) 73%	Judging (J) 27%

just the same! INCREDIBLE!

read this! read this!

HAHAH! i just took a fun personal test, and the result is incredibly and extremely TRUE!
i am just gonna show you some of the results, others, SECRET!

The person you like but can't work out is "LUONE" and "LIL" is the person you love.

The person you care most about is Nadya and Michelle is the person who knows you very well.

Your lucky star is Felicia.

Forever is the song that matches with "LIL", and Jai Ho is the song that matches with "LUONE".

According to this test, the number of people you would like to tell about this test is 7.

Only Time is the song that tells you the most about your mind and the song "Fire Burning" tells you how you feel about life right now!

this is the funnest and the most right test that i have ever taken!

no rest. come to think.

i hate this. i hate this part. i hate this part right here.
huh. :(
i'm incredibly depressed but happy.
God makes me happy all the time. He makes me smile. He makes me laugh. haha.
you should see how i cry. huh, so stressed, i heard His voice, her voice, and his voices inside of my heart.
they are hurting my very soul. and they are disturbing my mind.
you should know how i feel. i think you dont wanna know.
these and those guys and gals are wackos.
i hate them. i hate myself because i hate them. ruff? yes, of course.
i can say that you should see how i look, embarrassing.

it's just a total harassment that i am afraid of those guys. i ain't afraid of anybody or anything except God for sure.
as long as i am still the same, i am still mean, selfish, and brutal. you can hate me.
i am still in "like" with the same man, LIL.
and i still hate the same persons, you, him, and her.
there's nothing wrong with me. let's just see. you wanna put some bet?

all i can say is : i'm really anxious.

what to do?
hah, i don't know what to say.
but i'm happy. who gives a shit about you guys?
i have other problems to be taken care of. so, lay off and back the fuck off.
you wanna talk about me, feel free to do it, but you won't get any reaction from me.
so, happy talking, aunties.
and for me and other parts of myself : let's go bitches!

as long as it's free.

(btw, happy birthday mr.tirel. i hope we can see each other again.)

all i'm saying is, hate me, be mean to me, as long as it's free.
i won't and not going to take any money from you.
well, the bride said that this is not my fault.
so, it's not
she thanked me for sure. cause ya, i think that it's all my fault and i guess so.

yea, it's my fault. but, i'm not saying sorry, NO.
you know what, freako?
i want you to keep telling everybody. so, that will make myself look incredibly bad.
well, i want that. for sure, yea, i want that.
cause in the end, i'm sure you want me to end up extremely fucked up.
and later i'll make you feel so fucked up.
i'm sure about that. and this post will be the rudest post ever.

problems just keep coming. but time will solve it out.
this problem, i'll find the fun part in it.
even tough i won't and there are no such things as fun parts on a problem.
but i'm sure i can keep up.

i just have to listen to my friends and my sis.
for Christ's sake. i need help. but i can solve this problem with the halp of time.
just together you hate me? haha.
(together : to-get-her)

and now, all i'm gonna do is just send an email to a new friend.
pen friend for sure. ERGH.
i miss maddix and kevin
maddix is from england and kevin is from italy.
he taught me how to speak italian. huh, those were the days.

i like this guy.

you know what?
just listen to his lies. just listen to his lies.
i don't care, go ahead.

i like LIL.
he is not in indonesia, and i've been liking him for 2 YEARS.
and i never liked guys who are in my school.
it was just for playing, FOR SURE.

and eeeks. disgusting.

i am this and this, baby.

ha ha. i'm just really bored watching CSI. it's just really ruff.
see me.
dorky.
yeah.

me-tired.

syn, me tired, syn.
God, do i have that many sins?
yes, i know i have done lotsa bad stuff and things, but, ergh.
i know, i'm not supposed to talk this way and i'm not supposed i did that, well, it already happened, and now, let me and help me to solve it.
i know, it's my responsibility.
it is my responsibility.
Jesus Christ, i just wanna make it clear and straight.
i know, i guess so.
i guess questo ragazzino gradice il mio migliore amico.

so, all i wanna do is just facciali insieme.
please help, please touch my hand, my brain, my heart, and mind.
help me to be clear so i can make it clean.
i am saying this clearly.
and thanks btw, i'm feeling a bit better.
i love you, God.
sorry, but if you ask me about this, what i said and wrote. i just don't remember.
:PPP

you see, i'm just mad.

ce problème est foutu j'en hausse, même it' dur ; la mine de s pas plus mais ce problème est toujours incroyablement SHITTY ! baise de baise de baise de baise. i' ; m désolé, mais i' ; m juste vraiment fou en ce moment. ainsi i' ; écriture de m il dans les francais. désolé, les gens, les amis, et la famille. mais, BAISEZ-VOUS ! il a dit la baise à moi, mais l'I didn' ; t font n'importe quoi excepté qui indique à mon meilleur ami à quel point il saccadé est. that' ; s tout j'ai fait. est-ce que c'est erroné ? IL A TORT !

i know, maybe this is the wrong francais. but i just translated it. cause it's just too rude and too trashy and too jerky and also too bad to be read by you all.
to all french people, happy reading!

you see, this problem is just so shitty. i have enough problems now. i mean, no! my problems are so many.
wish you were i. HUH, you could die.
que voulez-vous le petit homme ?
rentrent à la maison et parlent à votre mère, rien il !

hey man, i like you.

on the other blog, i wrote i love you, now, i say i like you.
well, the meanings of those two words are different. soooo different.

well, right now. i am feeling that i like and love someone.
love 30% and like 70%

well, this is me.
i've been facing with this computer for hours and i'm hungry. but i'm chatting with my girlfriends, well, i'm talking about my probs.
i give a shit now. i know.

well, problems solved, by ME!
wahaha. cia always saves the day.
imma hero.
yeah, right?

okay okayy, now, FOLLOW MY TWITTER.
shit! this is just some shitty promotions.
well, add me, okay?


waitt, before i finish my speech :
i heard that my friend, our friend, randy just got on an accident.
really? gosh.

i guess i love you.

i love love love you.
gee, i just can't say it outloud.
im keeping this secret. the secret of my own.
so, i like this guy right here. and i just like him so much.
i'm not playing any games guys. don't worry.
and i am not on a mission of a revenge. read that once again, I AM NOT INTERESTED TO DO A REVENGE.
atau dalam bahasa indonesia : GUE GAK BAKALAN MEMANFAATKAN TEMEN BAIK GUE SENDIRI BUAT BALAS DENDAM, ANJING!

tuh, marah gue.
see, i'm mad.

just forget it. so what had happened to you today, peeps??
any good things? bad stuff?
well, good things happened to me today.
YEAY!
i saw a really "shame-on-him" picture, it was amazing. it was hilarious!
and then, i didn't talk to the girl that hates me so much.
shitty. do i give a shit? NO WAY.
well, enough saying bad stuff. lets talk about something good and idiot.

and at this very time, i am watching JONAS the third episode : Slice of Life.
girls love them so much but it's just hard for me to find the interesting part of them.
WHERE? well, they are quite handsome, but still chris breezy? chris is the best!
and until now, i haven't found the funny part.
(well, of course! i just started)
JONAS is quite cool too.

amazing!

waw, things are changing.
wa-waaw.
i can't wai to go to school. give a death stare to the people i hate and they will give me the same.
they hate me, and i hate them. so cute.

so, i wrote to sister ike, i said :
"i love to do things those are safe and fun but incredibly risky."
and the cute thing is, she underlined it.
ha ha. what i do?
that's a right thing. i love risky things. it's just the way i am.
or maybe because of what i love people hate me.
well, who cares? you do? i don't.

i never want to get that place. i didn't order that.
well, what the heck. i don't care. just let it go. just go go go go.
haaa, nobody is on the line.
i mean, online. i don't know how long i'll be here. probably tonight i'll sleep late.

i'm mad, so you know.

please don't read this post. i am just really mad. i just can't control my emotions.
i wanna scream but it's too late to scream. it's 11:45 if i'm not mistaken.

i hate those girls.
i'm so fvcked up right now. what just happened? did i just say that?

get off of me you fool.
i'll reduce, reuse, and recycle you, just wait.
HEY! that's a new quote.
i know it doesn't make any sense, but who cares?
i am still gonna reduce, reuse and recycle, people.

you see i've got this problem, i need to solve it. it's my responsibility.
necessary??ERRRGH.

just imagine. you have a friend, she told people, you are the best friend ever. and now you are having a problem with her, and you are responsible to it. SHITTY, HUH? yep-yep, so shitty. what a shitty problem. and then she just wrote on your wall about all the things that she has done. REALLY? fuck her if i can say.
fck fck fck fck fck!!!
i am just so mad.
good thing i'm not hurting anything. but yes, i'm hurting someone.
still a good thing that i don't feel sorry. i'm sorry, but i don't.
you can't push myself. but you can hate me for free.
do what you wanna do. hate me if you want to.
it's alright it's okay.
it's not a problem. but i'm sure you'll end up so fcked up.
i'm sure about that. you might say no, but i'm sure it's a yes.

no words to be marked, just forget this post.
i am just mad, and i hate.

"if i text you, it's a must you must reply"

HAHA, BOYS!
crazy moron crazy again.

well, it's just cute to see them having fun.
texting
chatting
phoning
calling
do-the-talk
hitting
teasing
that's enough.

why don't you just ask her to go out?
i'm sure she'll say YES.
she is a yes-woman.
too bad you're not a yes-man.
good luck with your love.

Y-J-Y

our favorite men.
i'm gonna say it once. and only one.
the one that is sooooooooo forgotten.
he is yohannes loyola.
cute name. jerky person.
he's nice and everytime i see him, he's like "what you lookin at?"
but, he's nice. so unknown but well-known.
i just can't explain it to you.
for those who have the same name. well, sorry for the coincidence.
someone was falling for you.
but she doesn't like you anymore. :P
well, you have moved on, havent you?

broke up? no, just split up,

yess, yess, that's the same thing.
i told him that i never was yours. it felt so bad.
so, we split up, then.

no, i am not broken heart. just sad. anxious for the future.
hahah. kinda, baby, sorta.

i'm gonna miss those "HIs".
i liked you so much, and still. but we're friends.
we worked things out for real.
i am number twod for you. that's ruff.
bahh. i'm missing you.
we are separating now.
and i think that we won't see each other for a while.
i am kicking myself out. just from this crowded place.
bye bye my lulu.
luonee. :P
herrghh.

damn it, i can't sleep.

i am still watching disney.
thats a shame. ha ha. who cares?
i don't. i am searching for the fun and the giggles.
well, i don't get any giggles until now.
huh, no one is online on facebook.
of course, it's 11:55.
think about it.
i just can't sleep. cannot!

this is a shame i'm watching hannah montana. what's happening?
i am watching the people that i dont like. hate for sure.
whatever.

i miss my luone. well, don't give a damn about it.
don't really care what people say about me either.
as long as i am doing my thing, i don't care.
they die, then i don't really have to die for them, do i?
i am still anxious and in suspense.
why? what about it?
keep coming.
what the heck. i wish i could meet you guys faces to faces, i'd probably tell who's luone, who's appel and stuff!
promises. pinky swear.

i chatted to a friend.
we talked about a person, i used to love.
no, it's not just like, but LOVE! for sure, but i dreamed to high and i was unthinkable, so i back down.
well, we talked about him, just for seconds, and then, talked about my girlfriend, and school projects and stuff.
he was fun.

i bet everybody is asleep.
i don't hear any music or sounds.
i guess i have to go up. nighty nite, bloggers!