n auug h tyyy.

GIRLS.

life is always good. i am naughty.
if i say my confession here, the people that know me will be veryveryvery mad.
n o ki d d i ng .

he was veryvery sweet. and i enjoyed every second with him.
my words might be soo rude here, but i dont give a shit. i had fun back in los angeles there.
no kidding.
no offense, but, everybody danced GOOD!
goo goo!

i might not be a candy cotton. but i guess i was sweet enough.
i miss my girls. i miss my host family. the Hilberts are the best!

you were the best :(

and now, you're the beast.
i lobed you. no, i liked you sooo muchmuchmuch!
more than i like Gabe Saporta like now.

you were amazing. you were.
and you asked me : love me love me love me.
i'd say : i did. i so did.

i'm not material. im not a thing. i smiled. i still do.
i laughed. and i still can laugh without you, so, yeah, i cried for you.
i didnt do any sacrifice, good thing.

but, i dont wanna continue living like a goo goo doll.
i have a life. i live, honey :)

too bd. you are the first person to make me cry. amazing, man, amazing.
and now, you dont wanna talk to me.
after all i did.
and you said i like you. SWEET BABY IN OKLAHOMA! waw.

silly pictures take me awaaaay!

i heart Lauraaa and Anaa so much!


friends are foreverrrr! i love you gals!


with our pride, 8C SUGAR BOX!


i fell in love with this place. and still do!


ahh, sometimes, i just love myself. HAHA.



San Luis Obispo


batik is amazing, right?!!


arrrgggh~!!


melinnie, suara kepincut.


bubble gum alley. my favorite place EVER!

call me the silliest girl.

i'm honored. iaaaaah, i love you.

i wanna kiss you, for real. really really.

i'll give you a really graceful french kiss.

HUAHAHAHAHA.

call me call me.

im the silliest girl ever.

i hate turkeys, i've never eaten a turkey before. but, i'm interested to.

yeahaha, i love turkeys. they are white, red, blue, and shiny!

but, they smell just sooo good. imma make their smell into a new fragrance, now you know, i;m just kidding.

;)

i could be so much more scarier than that little cute parrot :)

just dont make me mad. i hate being mad. i hate myself.

:)

i pose for everything. i love to fool around. i sing for you. i kiss you. i will. hard. soft. YECK!

i always sound like a bitch on my blog. i know. i am a bitch.

i used to get bullied, yeah.

it was so damn hurty! but, i am pver it. soooooo over it!

i love to do the macarena. YEEHA YO HUU.

i like lots of guys. it changes a lot. i love a guy, his not real name is "him", but for liking a guy, i can like a guy for like 5 seconds. NO KIDDING.

im the funniest girl in delapanC. and i still feel honored! i love delapanC.

and btw, delapanC is my used-to-be class, room 8C.

my bahasa indonesia is bad. my english is bad also. judge my if you can.

and im still the silliest girl. at least, for myself.

i was going to say : i sleep without anything or we can say, i sleep naked. but, my mom tells me not to li. so, i cant say that :)

PEACE OUT!

aah, she has a little new friend...

katy perry got a new tattoo, when's my turn! AAAAH.

im gonna have one, i am gonna have one!

the reason i loVe KA TY P E R R Y

because she looks cute in everything, i bet she's interesting when shes naked.

HAHA.

she is beautiful!! AAAAAHH, KA T Y I K I S S Y O UUUU!

she loves a realy sexy man, called J O S H G R O BAAAAA N!

she loves the person that i hate the most, R I H A N N A!

KATY YOU'RE CUTE!

the freakiest show ever!

gotta be honest! yes!

so there is a show called : THE MASTER.

for basic, yes, this show is amazingly cool. NOT FOR ME.

but, this show has made my sister become a freak. this show called the master becasue all of them are magic and they are magicians.

cool magicians. silly magicians. all of them are in the master.

uhlala. NOT COOL.

but no offense, this show is so not eduacting, but for fun, yes, you should watch it.

f r ee m e!

can i get one for youuu?

this fr e n z yfe e l i ng in s ide.

aah, top of the world.

weird.

btw, lately, as an introduction in every post. i said : aaah.

WEIRD. even weirder.

ha. what happened?

iuh. im currently listening to calle ocho. haha. pitbull, you're sexy.

and i hate facebook, because my chat is so fucked up.

i cant even chat with others. ARRRGGGH!

i found out that Gabe Saporta has had a girlfriend.

HIKS HIKS. i was totally disappointed. ARRGH.

but thats okaay, i got "him"

more special, probably than Gabe.

Gabe is a star. and ''him'' is not a dream. he is real.

aaah, ''him'', why are you sooo dreaaaaaammmmmyyyyy??

and still, my facebook chat still fucked up!

ARGH. i hate you.

my new favorites!

"him" is still holding number one! of course for sure. huaha.
gabe saporta is my number two! heheh.

this picture isnt sexy enough.

even you're way older than me, i dont care, i love you, man!
MARRY ME MARRY ME!
hahaha.

and do you know TRUE BLOOD?

i've been watching that silly sexy amazing show lately. that tv series is so amazing!
UH, VAMPIREE, drink my blood, i'm honored!

aaah, what a nasty song.

a nasty song but i love it! YEAH!



baby i dont care, i cont care what they say.
poitbull, you're sexy! ahaha.
lotsa people have watched this cute video. ahaha. love this.
this one is cute. i dont why.

F R E D

the most disturbing but the funniest person ever!
he's the best! but, his voice, i know, sooo disturbing but, that voice is the one that makes me smile :)



and his hair makes me remember of someone back in pismo. hahaha. silly ;p

but, heyy, btw, I LOVE FRED!
or so, LUCAS CRUIKSHANK!

BUDI teruslah bermain bola.

i dont care malaysia played with manchester. who gives a shit about malay?
YUCKY!

i got BUDI. the most valuable player. indonesia has spirit! we dont care about bombings and stuff. we care about US! and the spirit of BUDI!


BUDI, WE LOVE YOU.
ahahah. :)

semangat indonesia!

sweet memories.

ahh, remembering those days.
i dont even know when and where. but, i just remember there are several things, or many things that have happened in my life :)

EUROPE. sweet like candy.
AUSSIE. even more sweeter!

and these girls are even sweeter than aussssiee!!!!!
I FELL IN LOVE WITH PISMO AND WITH THESE GIRLS. ALSO WITH OTHERS!

uhhh, Felicia, Nadya, and Cindyyy.
aaah. i lovee delapanC. i love these girls also! aaaaaaaaaaahhh!
i wanna screeeaam! too bad we're not in the same class anymore.
sucks! hiaak.


uh, lovelovelove!

PA R IS! parlez vous francais?

uh, eiffel. gotta say, it was fun. but i'm not the type of girl that enjoys expensive places!

i miss those people.
Vala, Gina, Tasha, and more.
i mean, these people. wohoohoho.
;)

the worst thing that i have done is :

posed for this camera :

i am patricia. and yes, i do always look stupid.

cant wait for tomorrow, folks! WOOHOO!
tomorrow is the first day i am going to attend in extra classes.
this extra classes is going to be fun! i bet so!
because i am going to deal with computers.
or so we call, graphic designing.
uhh. i hope i am right in that one.

this extra class also called extracurricular. fun, right?!
this extra (that's how we call it) is sooo fun! this is gonna be my second year attending this funny and fun extra.
hehe ;P

tomorrow is going to be FAN T AS T IC!

aah, you're still the same :)

aaaah, i love you little kiddo.

uh huh!

i'm receiving the worst news ever.

ARRRGGGH. i hate boys sometimes! huh.

never mind. he's the most selfish person, i have ever met. more selfish than me! that is bad. no one can be better than me in being selfish! huh!

aah, i better stop. im being so hateful here. thats not good.

is loveful a word? if it is thats a really good thing. that is sweet.

loveful is a really sweet word.

i am hating a friend of mine. he teases my friend a lot. not with something about him, but, he teases my friend with something that is with me!

do you get it?

i wish you did. ARRGH. thats why i am juts so hateful right now.

i hate myself when i hate people.

do you have any blogs?

i heard that the biggest terrorist has a blog. WTF?!

can you believe that? i though he couldnt even switch a computer!

weird. wait, not just weird, WA AW!

he has a blog!

well, who gives a shit about him?

i only care about him, because if i catch him, world will love me, so much!

believe me. i heard that he is in the u.s right now.

i hate him because he hates americans so much!

whats wrong with americans? i love americans! they are so lovely!

as lovely as me. HAHAH.

ahh, teman teman...

meet my friends!

Nadya, Yoku, Cindy, and Felicia.

uhh, i love youuuuuuu!

kiss me kis m.

naaaa, that's just a title. dont think that i'm serious.

i never get too serious on what im saying. i know, i am bad, but, who cares?

i w a nt y ou n o w b a by. y o ua re ju s t s o d r e a my.

smart :)

i just want to rewind today. today at school, WAS AMAZEBALLS!

i loved it! i loved today! and still do.

and i found my lovelylovely bracelet! YEAY!

i love today! so, i made this bracelet back in pismo.

uhh, i miss pismo so muchmuchmuch!

uh, and then, it was gone, like about a week.

i had been searching for that little thingy thing for like ages.

and then suddenly my sister said to me this mornijng : ci! here!

and then she offered me that lovely bracelet!

huh! it was a lucky day!

the bracelet says : FB.

stands for, basically, it was going to stand for BF : BEST FRIENDS.

but, i was so stupid, i ade it FB.

stands for what : FACEBOOK!

urghhh, but it was good :)

i love my lovelylovely bracelet! i love facebook also! haha.

aaah, patriciaaaaaa :)

i had fun today! really fun!

even though i am sick! really sick! and i hate this.

i reallly doooooooo!!!!!!!

i dont wanna be sick. but, here i am, i am sick.

coughing, fever, flu.

wait, i'm afraid that i am affectted swine flu. huaha. pleasee dont.

huh, you wont even believeeeee me! i kissed "him" today!

no, i was just kidding. but, real doo! i am close to himm, yeayeyayeyayayay!!!

even words cannot express how happy i am.

belieev meeee!

even my english is broken because i'm about to talk about "him"

heheheh.

and stilll, i'm still talking about GABE SAPORTA with my best friend. i feel great.

i wanna to make sweats. but, i just cant. i jave to do some research on biology.

SUCKS!

still in love with the PARADISO GIRLS.

huaaa!

me and my favorite girls.

uhhh, Laura and Anaaa!

aku cinta kalian!

hey hey hey

huh, i wanna speak finish. hehhehe.
so, HEY! good day, ladies and gents.

boys and girls.

i'm watching a video of Gabe Saporta. uh, yes, im proud. hahaha.

i still had fun todat at school. i ave to go in a bit. ERRGH! i dont wanna go to my english course. it's boring. well, not really. it's basically,, fun. but, i'm tired.

and i've been having this little big big big headache.

and my book is gone. what a day?!

but i had fun today at school! can you read that? woohoo. i mean, i had fun. real fun.

hehehe. i bet you're jealous.

wait, i'm sorry for being this pushy.

but, yeah, good day good day.

boohoo. see this paradiso girls!

theyre cool!

uh. kill me, hilly billy.

heyy heyy, i'm just proud. cause i'm a country mouse.
country mouse. city mouse. hihih.

i wanna taste some margaritas. uhhhh :O
uh i miss katy perry.

i heart you silly.

i am wearing the cutest thing ever. haha. did i say that?
uh well, who cares?

i love that shirt! "BECAUSE I AM GABE SAPORTA AND I CAN DO THAT"
i love that quotation!
and i can say : BECAUSE I AM PATRICIA UTAMI AND I CAN DO THAT
uhlala, yes i can do that.
i'm not patricia if i cant do that. i do lotsa stuff. and i have done lots of stuff.
i'm patricia. i aint hitch, but im patricia.
now, i heart myself.
i heart you silly.
so silly.

silly me silly me.

the picture, o, yeas! the picture!
i forgot to tell you! it's PETE WENTZ and GABE SAPORTA!
it's GABEGABEGABE!
gabe is holding number one. hehehehehe.
i wanna eat jalapeno. suddenly. argh, stupid patricia.
well, back to the story.

it's silly you. yes, silly. i just love the word silly.
i love to say silly, i even love to act silly! it's always f-u-n!
do you love to acct silly?

no, probably, you are saying that im the stupid girl you've ever seen. and this is the stupid blog you've ever read. but, face it, oh baby, just face it.
i am in love with my own blog, and so will you!
hehehehe. jajajajajaja. hahahahaha :)
just smile. just laugh. there's nothing wrong with that.

talking about you is always just fun. i knoww. i knoww.
i'm a blogger. and i'm propud to show off my blog. even sometimes i say my blog is such a little shit.
because it's nothing compared with some special blogs.
but i dont care. because it's mine. and mine always holds number one. at least, in front of my eyes.
if others can make it. why cant i? it's good to have a blog. and it's good to sow off something that people dont have. haha :)
you can hate me. it's okaay.

loe emang sedang berpikir apaaa?

so, anybody knows what that means?
hahah. i know you're all indonesians, folks!
but if you're not! which that means : WHAAAAAAT?!
something speciaaaal. i love to know that my readers. the readers of my lovelylovelyharsh blog arent indos. aw awwwwww. good thing good thing.
so that means : what are thinking??
i mean, what the hell are you thinking?

in indonesian, there are several ways to say "you" and "me"
there are : saya and kamu.
used by lots of people but for basic, NOT TEENAGERS.
there are : aku and kamu.
uh lala. used by couples! huahahaha. sweet sweet alabama.
and last but not least, there are : gue and loe.
used totally by teenagers and people who are really close to each other (if they're adults)
understandd?

so, i just really lovee ind o o o o o o. why must i love another country?
well, yeah, i love finland, i love spain, i love france, and i love the u.s. but indonesia is holdiong number one. hahahaha.

there are lots of stuff to be taught, but i dont have any interests in teaching. so sorrrryyy.
;o but, i would love to see you speaking bahasa. that would be veryvery interesting to see.

yeah, i'm sorry. do i (hate) to repeat again?

aaah, o just hate to say this.
as a selfish person and a really "special-thinker" girl, i always hate myself when i made mistakes.
i feel sooo ashamed.
i'm sorry, stan. i'm sorry, von. i'm sorry everyboodyyy.
from the very bottom of my heart.

/////

i was just going to open facebook. and then send a message to my friends and then also to my host family.
but this internet connection SUCKS! i hatehatehatehate it. just so much!
i cant even open my facebook. so yeah, i cant open and do the things thast i was supposed to do.
sorry ;o
a really big sorry.

i have tons of work to do. i have a really big heavy hard (not, not at all) homework to be done.
and to be colected tomorrow. not to be collected, just to be checked. and if i didnt do it, it would be a really bad thing. tomorrow would be the worst day of my life.
i hate to deal with teachers, just hate it.
my opinion. when it comes to teachers, there must be something bad that i have done.
but, for basic, nooooooo -__-
i'm just the one that is so stupid. stupud. with u.
haha. not funny.

i'm tired now. i wanna see Gabe Saporta. i wanna kiss the cheek of Chris Brown. and also, i wanna see my friends. and i wanna do my homeworkkkkkk!!!! ARRRGGGGHLALALAAA!

dont let your honey wear a bunny, baby.

huah. everything you say sir.
:) i'll do as you saaaaay.
hu, i miss my pismo friends. wish we could meet again and then share and spend some time together.
hope so. hope so. fingers crossed.

i had school today. and it was FUN! amazing!!! aaaaaah.
i am veryveryvery happy.
maybe, a friend hates me, but who gives a shit about it?
i dont.

i trust in you.

believe-ing. believe. believing.

it's just one word, for basic.

technically, i dont believe in people. i never do. until now, i still dont believe.

but, how can i be trusted by other, if i dont trust them?

i need a word believe to say : i dont beliebe in people.

i dont believe in people. thats because people let me down. always. all the time.

why? i dont know. i always say, thats because it's just the way it is.

i am gifted, i cant tell. i have something in mind.

but, i just cant handle it. sometimes, i blame this. i blame Him. because everything i smell, i taste, it's not forever.

believing is forever.

well, this is the sick thing. something in my mind. no, actually, it's in my heart. said to me, just believe. and i do believe now.

people disappoint me. they always do. time disappoints me. how come?

but, now i trust you. and i let people trust me. i wont let them down.

gabegabegabe!

i'm your craziest fan! hahahaha.

<3

i love you the sexiest vegetarian. hahaha.

boys are sometimes, just too dreamy. and i will not get bored saying those words. because thats the truth. what you're saying?

in my opinion, it is the truth.

once, i talked to a pastor during my confession. and then,, he started this conversation this way :

Pastor : that's all. may God bless you. is there anything else that you want to ask?

Me : oh, yes. Pastor, what is love? i just wanna know.

Pastor : uh, kids like you only see people by the look. the faces.

(then he told me a story, and stuff)

it was amazing, it was good, and L.O.N.G.

boysboys

good day.

listening to the same song.

falling in love with the same guy.

i'm drunk of margaritas.

oh ah uh, the lyrics are so brave.

i'm so graceful today. i had an amazing time with my friends today. well said.

and still, i'm still in love love love with Gabriel Eduardo Saporta!

i'm tired. i got tons of work to do!

uh wait, how's your today so far?

i am happy because a nun is having a party today, so, yeah, students, well, you all must go home.. earlier.

i am in love with......

GABE SAPORTA!

make bigger fonts!

gabe saporta! gabe gabe gabe gabe!

GABRIEL EDUARDO SAPORTA!

a handsome name with a really handsome person!

PERFECTO!

he is a hottie. hahaha. better than chris!

but, my chris breeezy is still holding number one.

the coolest!

well, i just watched Harry Potter. and guess what i said?

"that was a total waste of my time!"

i would have gone to the massage center with my mom than watch that silly yet superb but nothing film.

FOR ME.

but, i am just falling in love with the rudest song ever. PATRON TEQUILA.

wawwwww, see this :

Imma have you drunk and throwing up (hey! )

By the end of the night

Imma have you so fucked up! (have you so fucked up)

that lyric is so rude! unbelivable!

but i like it.

but i am falling in love with COBRA STARSHIP.

waw, he is handsome and good looking!

kissykissy.

un-believe-able.

any sayings?
maybe the culture differences. thats why.
before going to church. better post something.
;)

i hate smells. huah.

well, back to-the-talk.
i like to do whatever i want. without making any appropriate touchings or kissing.
yeck. i still think of what they did. waw. without missing any respect.
i am just talking about it.
not teasing it. no offense.

kissy. kissy. so nice, fun, and wet.
YUCK!

i mean, he was nice, he was sweet. he was unbelievable. and i just wanna punch him.
now i regret. why i know him? why did i talk to him?
but, i'm looking forward to meet him again.
kill me. slap me. i'll accept it.
liking a guy is no mistake.
but i dont love him nor hate him.
blame you.

words are said. ahaha. i blame this feeling.

i dont remember him. but seeing his pictures. yeck.

that's just veryvery funny.

huh. guys are unpredictable.
WA-AWWW.
dont be, guys. dont be.

i just wanna laugh for some moments.

i mean, i was just checking some accounts on facebook.
and then, i opened this account, a guy's account.
gosh, i wanted to puked. dont know why. YUCKY.

and his face, cute cute, but ERRRGGH. i mean, bleeehh.
imagine me, making my ugliest look. thats the look that i want to show him.
like kissykissy (thats my language), thats disgusting.
stop it, ugh larlar, your disturbing, annoying, interrupting me.

yucky it's just yucky.
BLEEEH. no wonder.

INDONESIA. come come!

who said that those bombs have broken all parts of indonesia?
dumb people, yes.

come come. what are you waiting for?

high low.

i basically dont know what i have to talk about.
but, it's almost one already! haha.

i slept from 4 until seven. and then, i slept again from 7 until 9.
UNBELIEVABLE!
and then, after this, i'm going to sleep. of course.
but, i dont feel so sleepy, at all.

-_-"

people say that i am sick. i say, i'm fine.
thats why i never take medicine. and then my mom got mad at me, because i got sick today, i was so sick.
ahaha. i was so ashamed.

so-in-love

Damn it, love is so damn good.

I’m watching wizards on deck with that silly hannah montana.

I hate watching it, but I got nothing to be watched. I was about to watch Law&Oder SVU, but I already been watching wizards on deck with blablablah so, yeah, it’s on.

What you’ve been doing?

And now, I’m listening to Pitbull. Huahahaha. Stupid.

Talking about so-in-love with, I am in love with him. All the time.

I just really hate myself right now. Really do.

“when it’s almost finish, i just danced to the YMCA.”

Stop faking it. I still like to dream about those dreamy spanish boys. Ahahaha. And also, the funny french boys, and tall finish boys. Uhh, P.I.S.M.O.

“To Write LOVE on Her Arms.”

I am so-in-love with him. You got it wrong if you say our love is gone. Give me a chance to get it right.

“SUPERNOVA”

I want to go back to Paris. My superb vacation in Europe. In Paris, I went to the eiffel. And the romantic and long cruise around the city. Waved my hands to all the people around, waving to strangers. People I 1000000% didn’t know. I was superb fun.

:D

The french boys.

The finish boys.

The spanish boys. Why are you all sooo dreamy? Ahah.

“just like shadow, I’ll be beside you.”

I always ask myself, why I don’t have a boyfriend?

But, always feel I don’t need one. I never need one J

Ah. Why am I talking about boyfriends?