you are my ice cream flavor of the month.
you are sweet as cookies
and melting like cream.
i like you because you are that sweet, and this is all your fault.
yes, i am blaming you.
we are not close to each other.
we are not so far, basically we are close, enough.
but, do you wanna know the worst thing :
i like you via technology, and i hate to see you live.
i mean "live" like a band doing live from a stage.
i love the way you fool around (well, actually you are not fooling around)
but, i like you fool.
but te things is, how can i like you both.
(well, i don't know. i am stupid. i like you but i don't wanna do this and that. toooo dangerous. i don't really like your crowd)
i am blaming myself too.
i have no braveness, but do girls really have to go first?
i mean, to do the first move?
guys right?
well, i want to, but i am afraid that i will look too aggressive.
well, lets ust see, who will be hurt?
think that person will be me. cause so far, i don't see any sad expressions in your face
Kamis, 30 April 2009
this is stupid
yeay! tomorrow i am going back to schoo-l!
i just can't wait.
friday, and then saturday.
well, i am sure i am going to have lots and lots of fun.
and let me tell ya a secret :
back in love with that backyardigan.
i know it sounds really weird.
but, yea, tell me a thing, i like this guy.
but, i am not going to tell who.
:P
and tomorrow i am going to get my passport back!
and inside that passport, i am gonna see my visa.
uhhu, i am scared and nervous.
well, i have to study.
got little things to do upstairs.
ugh, math. ugh, science (but biology is cool.)
SCHOOL i am comingg.
i missed my friends a lot.
yea, i went to school.
i saw lots of kids, scouts of course. and everybody was there.
and my HE was there too.
but, too bad we didn't talk to each other.
p.s :
to drugs : butt off!
stop using drugs and don't use them.
:P(atricia)
i just can't wait.
friday, and then saturday.
well, i am sure i am going to have lots and lots of fun.
and let me tell ya a secret :
back in love with that backyardigan.
i know it sounds really weird.
but, yea, tell me a thing, i like this guy.
but, i am not going to tell who.
:P
and tomorrow i am going to get my passport back!
and inside that passport, i am gonna see my visa.
uhhu, i am scared and nervous.
well, i have to study.
got little things to do upstairs.
ugh, math. ugh, science (but biology is cool.)
SCHOOL i am comingg.
i missed my friends a lot.
yea, i went to school.
i saw lots of kids, scouts of course. and everybody was there.
and my HE was there too.
but, too bad we didn't talk to each other.
p.s :
to drugs : butt off!
stop using drugs and don't use them.
:P(atricia)
Rabu, 29 April 2009
you see, watching tv is not a bad idea.
SO, i just watched 3 episodes of CSI.
they were all amazing!
i love AXN.
i was supposed to watch another episode, but i'd rather chat with my friends.
but i wanna watch numb3rs later.
i love prime time wednesday.
it's just cool and fun.
and now, i am asking about my future son's name.
noo, i am not pregnant, i am expecting.
well, no, i am just going to name my son that name.
hehehe.
well, don't forget to always watch AXN. :)
they were all amazing!
i love AXN.
i was supposed to watch another episode, but i'd rather chat with my friends.
but i wanna watch numb3rs later.
i love prime time wednesday.
it's just cool and fun.
and now, i am asking about my future son's name.
noo, i am not pregnant, i am expecting.
well, no, i am just going to name my son that name.
hehehe.
well, don't forget to always watch AXN. :)
yeay!
the day after tomorrow is the big day!
i am going back to school!!!! yeay!
and then, i just did my final test, wooh.
it was kinda hard, but yeahh, bit easy.
i didn't know about noun suffixes and stuff.
but the rest, i did it.
i miss you my friendsssssss. i can't wait to see you guys!
and especially classmates, duhh, kita jangan lupa ribut bareng lagi.
oyeah, i am kinda hating a friend right now.
lately, she has been disturbing my life and my friends' probs.
is it really your business?
so, i hit her with my words, and STILL she wants to know about stuff that goes around my life and my friends'.
what is your problem?
you have your own? or maybe you don't have one? then MAKE ONE!
stop saying things that i don't wanna hear, cause i don't wanna hear your voice, you smss, your writings, and updates.
they are soooooooooo unbelievably exaggerating.
UGH!
i am going back to school!!!! yeay!
and then, i just did my final test, wooh.
it was kinda hard, but yeahh, bit easy.
i didn't know about noun suffixes and stuff.
but the rest, i did it.
i miss you my friendsssssss. i can't wait to see you guys!
and especially classmates, duhh, kita jangan lupa ribut bareng lagi.
oyeah, i am kinda hating a friend right now.
lately, she has been disturbing my life and my friends' probs.
is it really your business?
so, i hit her with my words, and STILL she wants to know about stuff that goes around my life and my friends'.
what is your problem?
you have your own? or maybe you don't have one? then MAKE ONE!
stop saying things that i don't wanna hear, cause i don't wanna hear your voice, you smss, your writings, and updates.
they are soooooooooo unbelievably exaggerating.
UGH!
the US embassy
well, today i went to the US embassy.
you know, i went there to beg for americans to give me another years.
actually, my visa is still on until june 4th 2009.
i have 5 years, but the stupid thing is i only used it once, for 2 weeks.
wahaha.
and the embassy was a fun place, but boring.
i wanna go there, on more time.
i hope i can get another five years, that will make me happy :)
and the one that interviewed me was a really nice guy.
and my visa will be ready on may 1st.
uhuhuhuh, i'm scared.
you know, i went there to beg for americans to give me another years.
actually, my visa is still on until june 4th 2009.
i have 5 years, but the stupid thing is i only used it once, for 2 weeks.
wahaha.
and the embassy was a fun place, but boring.
i wanna go there, on more time.
i hope i can get another five years, that will make me happy :)
and the one that interviewed me was a really nice guy.
and my visa will be ready on may 1st.
uhuhuhuh, i'm scared.
being popular and cool? ugh
"Don't do it to be cool, do it cos your cool."
you are what you are, peeps.
if you are forgotten at home, then don't make yourself forgotten at school.
hey guys, i hate these people.
they suck.
i have to go up
you are what you are, peeps.
if you are forgotten at home, then don't make yourself forgotten at school.
hey guys, i hate these people.
they suck.
i have to go up
Selasa, 28 April 2009
YOU.
i used to think of you. you were sweet, and still.
we are close, if i can say.
you are the one that always teach me bad things.
you ask me about bad things, that i technically don't wanna know.
you have everything, but sometimes people like you, but they like you if you change.
for me, don't change. be the way you are.
how can i make you see that i like you the way you are?
just the way it is.
if you are a jerk, be a jerk.
a bastard, be a bastard. be everything that you wanna be.
i'll accept you. just the way it is.
you, you taught me that i must believe in myself, i must hear what my heart says.
"of course, don't listen to them, listen to your heart."
i believe in.
but of course, i never your jerky, meany, and bastardy things.
but the point is, you taught me lots of things my friend.
i miss you friends.
we are close, if i can say.
you are the one that always teach me bad things.
you ask me about bad things, that i technically don't wanna know.
you have everything, but sometimes people like you, but they like you if you change.
for me, don't change. be the way you are.
how can i make you see that i like you the way you are?
just the way it is.
if you are a jerk, be a jerk.
a bastard, be a bastard. be everything that you wanna be.
i'll accept you. just the way it is.
you, you taught me that i must believe in myself, i must hear what my heart says.
"of course, don't listen to them, listen to your heart."
i believe in.
but of course, i never your jerky, meany, and bastardy things.
but the point is, you taught me lots of things my friend.
i miss you friends.
parle a ma main.
talk to my hand.
yeah, right. i love you fatal bazooka, and yelle, gosh, you are amazing.
because of them, and my sister, i wanna learn how to speak french.
i think it's going to be fun.
so, for all the people who just come to me to talk about shitty things. back of and talk to my hand.
happy?
Guys are all dumb (oh yeah)
Guys are all dumb (oh yeah)
Guys (oh yeah), guys (oh yeah), guys are all dumb
Guys are all dumb they think they can give us the finger (oh, gross!)
All they do is cheat on us I know it from Vitaa’s record
My parents aren’t very cool either (no shit)
They don’t want me to smoke and they don’t even want to divorce (poor thing!)
I’m really sick of being their “mystery bouquet” (I hear you)
They don’t understand I need a scooter to survive
If this goes on I swear I have to flee to a club (you’re right)
And to make them crazy I won’t come home until 2 AM
get ready for more
i am miss something, i am miss that, miss this.
i just love being a miss.
so, for the next days and forward, i am going to be miss playful.
yeah, playful
get ready for more playful action!
i just love being a miss.
so, for the next days and forward, i am going to be miss playful.
yeah, playful
get ready for more playful action!
so. what's next?
hiks hiks hiks.
i am crying, wahahaha.
i am a baby then if i am crying right now.
well, the thing is, i am not crying. i am happy, and a bit sad, but happy.
i am happy cause at least i can be friends with him.
i am not asking for other things.
i am not ready to be in a relationship. cause i am not a relationship person.
i am still learning to be faithful, i am afraid that i can't be.
well, of course i won't cheat, but i am just not ready.
i can translate this, be happy because this is the explanation :
"jadi, gue bangga2 aja kita masih jadi, temen, maaf banget karena gue bilang kalo gue belum mw pacaran karena emang gue belum siap. karena juga gue anaknya gak bisa setiaaa. hehehe."
i am not searching for another guy, i am still being me.
so far, i have liked abot 13 or 10 guys. i don't feel like i have to see another, cause i already have seen 13. i just need to choose one of them.
but i think i don't really wanna see guys right now.
dangerous, unbelieveable, and i need a break. i am just tired.
tired of liking and i am afraid that i'll dissapoint them.
i am mean, but i have feelings. of course.
i am crying, wahahaha.
i am a baby then if i am crying right now.
well, the thing is, i am not crying. i am happy, and a bit sad, but happy.
i am happy cause at least i can be friends with him.
i am not asking for other things.
i am not ready to be in a relationship. cause i am not a relationship person.
i am still learning to be faithful, i am afraid that i can't be.
well, of course i won't cheat, but i am just not ready.
i can translate this, be happy because this is the explanation :
"jadi, gue bangga2 aja kita masih jadi, temen, maaf banget karena gue bilang kalo gue belum mw pacaran karena emang gue belum siap. karena juga gue anaknya gak bisa setiaaa. hehehe."
i am not searching for another guy, i am still being me.
so far, i have liked abot 13 or 10 guys. i don't feel like i have to see another, cause i already have seen 13. i just need to choose one of them.
but i think i don't really wanna see guys right now.
dangerous, unbelieveable, and i need a break. i am just tired.
tired of liking and i am afraid that i'll dissapoint them.
i am mean, but i have feelings. of course.
argh, come on!
i am confused.
i really like this dirty guy, but this feeling is blurring. (if you know what i mean.)
and now i am confused, because not because he is mean, dirty, and stuff.
but, it's just because i have no braveness to say to him that i like him.
well, i have said that to him.
yea, i have said to him that i like him. and he's okay with it.
i am dealing with big things here.
i am just afraid.
wait, why am i supposed to be afraid?
there's nothing to be afraid of.
this is shitty. liking a boy is sooo shitty.
i like just like lady gaga singing a song.
she always makes it unique, wait not singing. it's just like what lady gaga always wears.
she wears unique stuff, right?
i make liking become something unique. so it'll be fun and challenging for sure.
i love challenge because my life is boring enough, so that's why i want to add some new colors.
so what must i do?
i think i don't like him, anymore.
bye-bye.
i really like this dirty guy, but this feeling is blurring. (if you know what i mean.)
and now i am confused, because not because he is mean, dirty, and stuff.
but, it's just because i have no braveness to say to him that i like him.
well, i have said that to him.
yea, i have said to him that i like him. and he's okay with it.
i am dealing with big things here.
i am just afraid.
wait, why am i supposed to be afraid?
there's nothing to be afraid of.
this is shitty. liking a boy is sooo shitty.
i like just like lady gaga singing a song.
she always makes it unique, wait not singing. it's just like what lady gaga always wears.
she wears unique stuff, right?
i make liking become something unique. so it'll be fun and challenging for sure.
i love challenge because my life is boring enough, so that's why i want to add some new colors.
so what must i do?
i think i don't like him, anymore.
bye-bye.
i'm back
yeah, i have done about 30 number out of 55.
and i'll continue doing it later. around night.
math sucks, i really hate it, but i have love to love ugh.
i texted and now i am chatting.
i am a computer geek.
yeaa, :)
i am tired, my eyes are tired, i wanna sleep but i just can't
btw, what do you guys up to?
well, as i always do, i always up to do something baaaad.
i miss everyone.
hey, btw, i wanna see who are the people who read this silly little blog.
i love my blogs.
they are like a mirror of myself.
hehehe :P
and btw, ***, i won't do things that will risk myself.
even tough i love risky things, but i don't wanna put myself in a really dangerous situation.
like *secret
and i'll continue doing it later. around night.
math sucks, i really hate it, but i have love to love ugh.
i texted and now i am chatting.
i am a computer geek.
yeaa, :)
i am tired, my eyes are tired, i wanna sleep but i just can't
btw, what do you guys up to?
well, as i always do, i always up to do something baaaad.
i miss everyone.
hey, btw, i wanna see who are the people who read this silly little blog.
i love my blogs.
they are like a mirror of myself.
hehehe :P
and btw, ***, i won't do things that will risk myself.
even tough i love risky things, but i don't wanna put myself in a really dangerous situation.
like *secret
signing off
heyyo, i guess i have to log off.
i have to do my math and economic homework.
i'll go to you asap.
love you guys, and keep reading btw!
i have to do my math and economic homework.
i'll go to you asap.
love you guys, and keep reading btw!
well, so be it!
"The insurgency will rise
When the bloods been sacrificed
Don't be blinded by the lies
In your eyes"
When the bloods been sacrificed
Don't be blinded by the lies
In your eyes"
"Violence is an energy
From here to eternity
Violence is an energy
Silence is the enemy
So gimme gimme revolution"
From here to eternity
Violence is an energy
Silence is the enemy
So gimme gimme revolution"
now i know, i am supposed to be noisy, i am supposed to be loud, and i am not supposed to be shy, and in silence.
as long as i have my mouth and ears, i am going to do whatever that i want.
don't be blinded by the lies in your eyes
WOW, i totally agree with that.
i was almost blinded by the lies.
the lies of my enemy (well, used to be close friend, but, eek!)
so, be whatever you want to be.
as long as i have my mouth and ears, i am going to do whatever that i want.
don't be blinded by the lies in your eyes
WOW, i totally agree with that.
i was almost blinded by the lies.
the lies of my enemy (well, used to be close friend, but, eek!)
so, be whatever you want to be.
i love INDONESIA!
indonesia, mari maju. keep moving forward.
visit indonesia, NOW!
you'll see the smile, the culture, and the couture.
you'll see low quality singer and high quality actress and actors those play in bad tv series.
under the lead and the government of SUSILO BAMBANG YUDHOYONO, you'll get the best trip in indonesia, that i guaranteer, you'll never forget it.
love indonesia, and love the culture that malaysia almost steal.
with susilo bambang yudhoyono, everything is possible.
cause impossible is nothing, you knwo.
go to indonesia, visit indonesia, NOW!
kami menunggu. :)
Senin, 27 April 2009
come and think about it.
my baby is resting right now.
and me, i am young and restless. damn right.
i've been thinking lately, i think i really like him.
i really do. but i am afraid that when i say this, in the future, i'll regret it.
but, i guess what now is now, and i don't really give a shit about the past.
i'll never get it back.
i am tireeeeeed :(
i miss my sissy. can't wait for december to come.
i miss my friends, i just can't wait to scream with them, outloud
gosh, my back hurts.
ohh, i am getting older, and older, also odder and odder.
uhh, help.
-give me a minute-
and me, i am young and restless. damn right.
i've been thinking lately, i think i really like him.
i really do. but i am afraid that when i say this, in the future, i'll regret it.
but, i guess what now is now, and i don't really give a shit about the past.
i'll never get it back.
i am tireeeeeed :(
i miss my sissy. can't wait for december to come.
i miss my friends, i just can't wait to scream with them, outloud
gosh, my back hurts.
ohh, i am getting older, and older, also odder and odder.
uhh, help.
-give me a minute-
honestly.
| 1. Honestly, whats on your mind right now? a boy, that i like |
| 2. Honestly, what color is your underwear? wait i am checking, yep, it's green with pink |
| 3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? answering this questions and chatting with a friend |
| 4. Honestly, what did you do today? chatted with friend, did my math and biology homework |
| 5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive? yes, the way i am. |
| 6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? hmmm, nope. |
| 7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel? yes, sometimes. |
| 8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? yes, a girl.but not my friend |
| 9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time? chatting with my likey boy, and spend time with friends |
| 10. Honestly, do you bite your nails? YEP. :d |
| 11. Honestly, what is your mood right now? confused, i am in the mood of answering these questions. |
| 12.Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? not interested to even feel it. |
| 13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute? my likey boy. :D |
| 14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret? YES, of course. |
| 16. Honestly, do you hate someone right now? YES. |
| 17. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now? my friends, i miss them! |
| 18. Honestly, are you loyal? i am still learning to |
| 19. Honestly, are you in denial? basically, no. |
| 20. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now? WHAT?! |
| 21. Honestly, who is your best friend? nadya. |
| 22. Honestly, have you ever consumed alcohol? no, not interested to. |
| 23. Honestly, do you like someone? YES! |
| 24. Honestly, does anyone like you? maybe, who knows? |
| 25. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them? yeaahh. but we don't actually know where we're heading |
| 26. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly? YES! |
another questions?
WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR CELLPHONE?
nothing, only words, saying viva la vida
DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?
NO, i slept at 2.30 and woke up about 8.30
FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING?
my likey boy, :)
WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE?
a glass actually jug or water
GRILLED OR FRIED?
fried
WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?
my voice, wahah.
ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
nooo. well, not really.
FAVORITE HANGOUT?
with my friends
3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?
iPod, iPod, and computer
FAVORITE SONG?
FOREVER - CHRIS BROWN!
WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
GOD
ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?
i love to give, and i often take.
WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
CIA, PATRICIA
STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD TAKE ONE THING?
ummm, a knife
FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?
umm, A MILD
WHO'S YOUR CELL PHONE PROVIDER?
TELKOMSEL
FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
iPOd
Whats your favorite color?
ORANGE!
WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS TAKE WITH YOU?
MY Ipod
WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?
a nurse, a teacher, a sister. :DD
WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK TURNS 11:11?
chatting, sleeping, eating, looking at the clock and say : i am lucky!
THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEEt?
green
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT BEFORE YOU GO TO BED?
what have i done
nothing, only words, saying viva la vida
DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?
NO, i slept at 2.30 and woke up about 8.30
FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING?
my likey boy, :)
WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE?
a glass actually jug or water
GRILLED OR FRIED?
fried
WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?
my voice, wahah.
ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
nooo. well, not really.
FAVORITE HANGOUT?
with my friends
3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?
iPod, iPod, and computer
FAVORITE SONG?
FOREVER - CHRIS BROWN!
WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
GOD
ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?
i love to give, and i often take.
WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
CIA, PATRICIA
STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD TAKE ONE THING?
ummm, a knife
FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?
umm, A MILD
WHO'S YOUR CELL PHONE PROVIDER?
TELKOMSEL
FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
iPOd
Whats your favorite color?
ORANGE!
WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS TAKE WITH YOU?
MY Ipod
WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?
a nurse, a teacher, a sister. :DD
WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK TURNS 11:11?
chatting, sleeping, eating, looking at the clock and say : i am lucky!
THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEEt?
green
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT BEFORE YOU GO TO BED?
what have i done
ask me?
Whats your middle name?
UTAMI
How big is your bed?
queen size, if i am not mistaken
What are you listening to right now?
kevin rudolf ft. lil' wayne - let it rock
What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number?
0075
What was the last thing you ate?
chicken curry
Last person you hugged?
my best friend, nadya
How is the weather right now?
wet, just rained
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
umm, mommy
What is the first thing u notice in the opposite sex?
i don't know.
Favorite type of Food.
spicy, yea right.
Do you want children?
OF COURSE! their birth dates are going to be tattooed
Do you drink?
hoii, i am fourteen, baby.
Ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night?
no. but i am interested to fell that
Hair color?
black
Eye colour?
black
Do you wear contacts/glasses?
na-ah
Favorite holiday?
june-july. i know you have summer vacation, but i don't. :C
UTAMI
How big is your bed?
queen size, if i am not mistaken
What are you listening to right now?
kevin rudolf ft. lil' wayne - let it rock
What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number?
0075
What was the last thing you ate?
chicken curry
Last person you hugged?
my best friend, nadya
How is the weather right now?
wet, just rained
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
umm, mommy
What is the first thing u notice in the opposite sex?
i don't know.
Favorite type of Food.
spicy, yea right.
Do you want children?
OF COURSE! their birth dates are going to be tattooed
Do you drink?
hoii, i am fourteen, baby.
Ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night?
no. but i am interested to fell that
Hair color?
black
Eye colour?
black
Do you wear contacts/glasses?
na-ah
Favorite holiday?
june-july. i know you have summer vacation, but i don't. :C
my BIG confessions
well, welcome to my big confessions!
soooo, here they are :
1. i don't like to text, call, or anything that connects with PHONE. i just hate it, that's all. but if it's important, then i'll put my ears and my fingers on it.
2. i don't like to take baths.
yeaa, this is my big confession. no, i am not westernized, i am just being me, and the real me don't like to take baths. but, when i go to school, of course i take a bath first and then go. are u crazy?
3. i like *****
yea, and you know what? he knows about this. :DD
i don't care he likes me or not, cause i just like him, that's all.
4. i love to talk with my own self
yea, but i know places. i always talk alone in my bed room.
well, for real, i never pray, i TALK to JESUS.
5. i love to play challenging games!
everything! from playing with toys, til playing with real people's feelings
wahahaha, actually i am playing with one right now. i am not the one that is doing it, my bestie is.
you go girl!
6. i used to be sooo unfaithful.
i onle liked a man, a boy only like for ummm, 2 days? a day? 7 hours?
i never liked them seriously, i never took any relationship seriously.
but now, i have learnt my lesson, and i am ready for serious but fun relationship.
with anybody.
7. i don't like high heels.
so far, i wore high heels only once. in medan, during my uncle's party.
he is now married to nanggi. that is a call for an aunt for batak people.
8. i love styling.
i'd love to give you a makeover, but na-ah, i just like to style myself.
dress me up. yea.
9. i have my first cigarette when i was in kindergarten
shhh, well, who cares?
btw, it was baaad
10. so far, i have liked 10 boys.
this is BIG. but i only like one right now.
you know who. :D
11. i had my first broken heart when i was 13 or 14
i forgot. it felt baaad! he was jerking me all the time, i just didn't realize that.
huh, well, wait for more.
:P(atricia)
soooo, here they are :
1. i don't like to text, call, or anything that connects with PHONE. i just hate it, that's all. but if it's important, then i'll put my ears and my fingers on it.
2. i don't like to take baths.
yeaa, this is my big confession. no, i am not westernized, i am just being me, and the real me don't like to take baths. but, when i go to school, of course i take a bath first and then go. are u crazy?
3. i like *****
yea, and you know what? he knows about this. :DD
i don't care he likes me or not, cause i just like him, that's all.
4. i love to talk with my own self
yea, but i know places. i always talk alone in my bed room.
well, for real, i never pray, i TALK to JESUS.
5. i love to play challenging games!
everything! from playing with toys, til playing with real people's feelings
wahahaha, actually i am playing with one right now. i am not the one that is doing it, my bestie is.
you go girl!
6. i used to be sooo unfaithful.
i onle liked a man, a boy only like for ummm, 2 days? a day? 7 hours?
i never liked them seriously, i never took any relationship seriously.
but now, i have learnt my lesson, and i am ready for serious but fun relationship.
with anybody.
7. i don't like high heels.
so far, i wore high heels only once. in medan, during my uncle's party.
he is now married to nanggi. that is a call for an aunt for batak people.
8. i love styling.
i'd love to give you a makeover, but na-ah, i just like to style myself.
dress me up. yea.
9. i have my first cigarette when i was in kindergarten
shhh, well, who cares?
btw, it was baaad
10. so far, i have liked 10 boys.
this is BIG. but i only like one right now.
you know who. :D
11. i had my first broken heart when i was 13 or 14
i forgot. it felt baaad! he was jerking me all the time, i just didn't realize that.
huh, well, wait for more.
:P(atricia)
well. let's see.
fck me to eternity - know your enemy
does eternity even exist?
i have lots to be told.
i have a friend, a half man, and still a boy. he played my best friend's heart.
what a jerk? he played with mine and now my friend's.
waw, he is so dead to me. so dead.
i can kill him, and i am going to.
well, he's a third class player.
well, never mind him, i don't really give a shit about him.
but i do care about my friend's feelings.
he sucks. such a jerk.
and then, i have another friend.
i chatted with him, and he just went off.
that was mean, man. but i don't really care, too.
but i like him for real. and i am learning to be faithful.
and, also, he knows about "i like him" thing, so it's alright.
so, there are lots of complicated things about boys, huh?
but the point is, love is complicated.
does eternity even exist?
i have lots to be told.
i have a friend, a half man, and still a boy. he played my best friend's heart.
what a jerk? he played with mine and now my friend's.
waw, he is so dead to me. so dead.
i can kill him, and i am going to.
well, he's a third class player.
well, never mind him, i don't really give a shit about him.
but i do care about my friend's feelings.
he sucks. such a jerk.
and then, i have another friend.
i chatted with him, and he just went off.
that was mean, man. but i don't really care, too.
but i like him for real. and i am learning to be faithful.
and, also, he knows about "i like him" thing, so it's alright.
so, there are lots of complicated things about boys, huh?
but the point is, love is complicated.
miss ya kidd.
i love rain, and i am waiting for rain to come.
like i said on facebook : rain fell in UEA, well, only for 2 minutes.
well, actually, basically, technically, this rain is just an example.
i need this person, just like a drug.
lots of things that i have to tell you.
but i just don't know where to start.
well, no one believes that i have studied and done my biology homework, well, that's not a good start, but they just don't wanna believe me.
and i made some little posters, well actually they're just only words on plain papers
saying :
fvck the world
say bye2 to the old cia, and say hello to the new cia
u don't like me, screw you, shoo-shoo asshole
and the other one
YOU HAVE TO STUDY, IT'S EASY
that's the one that 've been looking and staring.
cause it's just my motivator.
well, after my mom. of course.
i miss you guys, i have told this thing like thousands of times, but i just can't get the rid of it.
(if that makes sense)
i love you guys, i just can't wait to see you guys in friday.
well, it's going to be the day that we all going to see each others' homework, but that's our tradition right?
i miss my cousins, and i really wanna see my new cousin bernadette.
waw, she is beautiful. i love her. i saw her picture, and now i wanna see her live.
face to face. that's fun.
i think i am jealous. i'm not gonna tell yaa who is this gal and guy.
but i am just jealous.
well, life has its own ups and downs, i hope i will go up soon.
:DD
like i said on facebook : rain fell in UEA, well, only for 2 minutes.
well, actually, basically, technically, this rain is just an example.
i need this person, just like a drug.
lots of things that i have to tell you.
but i just don't know where to start.
well, no one believes that i have studied and done my biology homework, well, that's not a good start, but they just don't wanna believe me.
and i made some little posters, well actually they're just only words on plain papers
saying :
fvck the world
say bye2 to the old cia, and say hello to the new cia
u don't like me, screw you, shoo-shoo asshole
and the other one
YOU HAVE TO STUDY, IT'S EASY
that's the one that 've been looking and staring.
cause it's just my motivator.
well, after my mom. of course.
i miss you guys, i have told this thing like thousands of times, but i just can't get the rid of it.
(if that makes sense)
i love you guys, i just can't wait to see you guys in friday.
well, it's going to be the day that we all going to see each others' homework, but that's our tradition right?
i miss my cousins, and i really wanna see my new cousin bernadette.
waw, she is beautiful. i love her. i saw her picture, and now i wanna see her live.
face to face. that's fun.
i think i am jealous. i'm not gonna tell yaa who is this gal and guy.
but i am just jealous.
well, life has its own ups and downs, i hope i will go up soon.
:DD
ahh, too bad.
billie joe amstrong, he is 37, i can't date him, that's too bad.
huh, so sadd.
but, btw, love, love his music, i mean, green day for sure.
love tre cool, and mike drint also.
but billie joe is the best.
ohh, green day, i am falling for you.
Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono
i am not suing him, i don't wanna to ask for things and facilities for indonesia.
for me, he has done enough.
he is amazing, and he has suffered enough for this country, INDONESIA.
i am proud of him, and you must be too.
he made prices lower, forget about the others, i want him to lead indonesia for another five years.
he is going to do his job well.
i am sure about that, cause he is just amazing. i know i have written that.
and then, he fights for indonesia, he is my type of president.
and i am sure that the first lady, she is very proud of him.
vote for him, and show to indonesia that you are going to vote SBY.
SBY deserves to win, yeah right.
use your voice, no vote means you have no voice.
it's time to speak up.
things, stuff, anything else?
love is so overrated as i always say.
the election for the next president, which SBY IS GOING to win, i just can't be here.
sad, huh?
i know i have said this, but i wanna go to school.
i want to chit chat with my friends, besties, and more.
i wanna fight with them using bad words, and our parents' names.
well, that's teenagers.
i don't really care, as long as we're having fun, is there anything that stops us?
i miss them so muuuuch, but the nine graders are doing their national tests.
i hope they are dong well.
i wanna go to school.
don't care about the mad teachers, i just wanna see them, in class.
i miss you guyssss.
the election for the next president, which SBY IS GOING to win, i just can't be here.
sad, huh?
i know i have said this, but i wanna go to school.
i want to chit chat with my friends, besties, and more.
i wanna fight with them using bad words, and our parents' names.
well, that's teenagers.
i don't really care, as long as we're having fun, is there anything that stops us?
i miss them so muuuuch, but the nine graders are doing their national tests.
i hope they are dong well.
i wanna go to school.
don't care about the mad teachers, i just wanna see them, in class.
i miss you guyssss.
with the love of their life.
well, i know, lots of people don't like you.
they want you to change, they want you to be the way they like.
but i say, don't change.
i am sure there are lots and lots of people who will like you the way you are.
if you are mean and cold, also chilly, but i am sure a man, a woman, a girl, or a boy, will fall in love with you without wanting you to change.
i like a man, oh, a boy for sure, even tough he is bad, i just like him.
i am criminal, also as he.
but i don't know, maybe i am not supposed to like him. cause i like him, but we're like hanging up right now.
so, probably i have to move on, i have no choice.
i have tried to be faithful, but still he is gone i think so.
and then, believe in yourself. i do believe in myself, with that i can do everything that i can do.
i listen to my heart, all the time, so probably i won't regret all the things that i have done.
cause my heart told me to do those silly little things.
don't listen to your friends, listen to yourself.
they are talking without stopping.
so, so with the love of your live
please believe in yourself.
love yourself, live your life.
they want you to change, they want you to be the way they like.
but i say, don't change.
i am sure there are lots and lots of people who will like you the way you are.
if you are mean and cold, also chilly, but i am sure a man, a woman, a girl, or a boy, will fall in love with you without wanting you to change.
i like a man, oh, a boy for sure, even tough he is bad, i just like him.
i am criminal, also as he.
but i don't know, maybe i am not supposed to like him. cause i like him, but we're like hanging up right now.
so, probably i have to move on, i have no choice.
i have tried to be faithful, but still he is gone i think so.
and then, believe in yourself. i do believe in myself, with that i can do everything that i can do.
i listen to my heart, all the time, so probably i won't regret all the things that i have done.
cause my heart told me to do those silly little things.
don't listen to your friends, listen to yourself.
they are talking without stopping.
so, so with the love of your live
please believe in yourself.
love yourself, live your life.
how?
that essay is so damn long.
well, at least i am done. haha.
so all i need to do is copy and then paste.
yaahm, i am sooo tired. it's too late.
i have to go to sleep. this is crazy.
well, at least i am done. haha.
so all i need to do is copy and then paste.
yaahm, i am sooo tired. it's too late.
i have to go to sleep. this is crazy.
my essay about myself
so, i have to write about myself. here it goes :
my name is Maria Patricia Utami Saragih. My friends, families, and others usually call me Patricia, but for sure they call me Cia. They say the shorter the better.
I was born in St. Carolus hospital, January 7th 1995. so i am 14.
i am the daughter of my father, Freddy Rikson Saragih, he is a government employee and also my mother, Roselyn Maria Sinaga. They're both 49.
i go to Santa Maria Junior High School, i am on grade 8. My class is in 8C. I love my friends so much, and i have lots of friends, they know my secrets and stories. You know, teenagers like to tell stories, especially about dating and stuff.
I Live in Jakarta, in South Jakarta, around Karang Tengah, Lebak Bulus. My house is located on VILA DELIMA D no. 1. So you'll find me there. Home Sweet Home.
I am the third child, i have 3 siblings. 2 Sisters and 1 Brother.
Their names are, Stephanie, my oldest sister, she is in Melbourne now, studying at Monash Uni, and work as a waitress in Nando's. she is 20, and i adore her so much. she is a party person, but smart as well. she has taught me about lots of stuff. including to dress up fashionably.
Austin, my only brother, he's 16, just turned 16 on March 27th. He goes to Canisius College, and he is on 10 grade. He's smart for real.
Angel, my little sister, she is 11 if i am not mistaken, and she goes to Sancta Ursula Elementary School.
I have lots of hobbies, but most of my free time i spend with fooling around and dance around like a crazy girl. Well, the world is getting crazier and crazier, so am i.
I love to swim, dance, sing (my voice is not really good), hang out with friends, but i don't really like to study.
My scores aren't really good, my math is so bad, extremely bad.
I love to hang out, i love to talk, i am so talkative, but a little bit shy, but, inside it, there is a really wild girl that is trying to discover a new world. My english isn't so bad, if i have to score myself.
Oh, i love to write about lots of things on my blogs. I have two blogs. One is in bahasa, and the other one is in english. just for practicing and for fun, for sure.
free to open : www.patricia-imagination.blogspot.com
Lots of people say i am a little bit rude, mean, and dirty. Well, this is who i am, and i want others to accept me whoever i am. If i can do it, why can't others?
on my bog, you'll find the real me, i love to write about lots of things. That's what i do.
And, i can't live without my iPod, i just love listening to my iPod, it has a named, i call my iPod Poddy. Poddy is the thing that i always bring.
I usually listen to Avenged Sevenfold, Lady GaGa and more. Hope you like their musics too.
I hate my phone, i don't really like to use my phone, but i love to chat via facebook, and stuff like those. i also have twitter, but i don't really like it.
Well, i think if you have read this, you'll know enough about me.
about food? i eat everything, i drink everything but not alcohol. and i always love things those are very challenging, and i always take it. i can take the risks of the risky things.
That's all about me. Thanks for reading.
:D :P(atricia)
my name is Maria Patricia Utami Saragih. My friends, families, and others usually call me Patricia, but for sure they call me Cia. They say the shorter the better.
I was born in St. Carolus hospital, January 7th 1995. so i am 14.
i am the daughter of my father, Freddy Rikson Saragih, he is a government employee and also my mother, Roselyn Maria Sinaga. They're both 49.
i go to Santa Maria Junior High School, i am on grade 8. My class is in 8C. I love my friends so much, and i have lots of friends, they know my secrets and stories. You know, teenagers like to tell stories, especially about dating and stuff.
I Live in Jakarta, in South Jakarta, around Karang Tengah, Lebak Bulus. My house is located on VILA DELIMA D no. 1. So you'll find me there. Home Sweet Home.
I am the third child, i have 3 siblings. 2 Sisters and 1 Brother.
Their names are, Stephanie, my oldest sister, she is in Melbourne now, studying at Monash Uni, and work as a waitress in Nando's. she is 20, and i adore her so much. she is a party person, but smart as well. she has taught me about lots of stuff. including to dress up fashionably.
Austin, my only brother, he's 16, just turned 16 on March 27th. He goes to Canisius College, and he is on 10 grade. He's smart for real.
Angel, my little sister, she is 11 if i am not mistaken, and she goes to Sancta Ursula Elementary School.
I have lots of hobbies, but most of my free time i spend with fooling around and dance around like a crazy girl. Well, the world is getting crazier and crazier, so am i.
I love to swim, dance, sing (my voice is not really good), hang out with friends, but i don't really like to study.
My scores aren't really good, my math is so bad, extremely bad.
I love to hang out, i love to talk, i am so talkative, but a little bit shy, but, inside it, there is a really wild girl that is trying to discover a new world. My english isn't so bad, if i have to score myself.
Oh, i love to write about lots of things on my blogs. I have two blogs. One is in bahasa, and the other one is in english. just for practicing and for fun, for sure.
free to open : www.patricia-imagination.blogspot.com
Lots of people say i am a little bit rude, mean, and dirty. Well, this is who i am, and i want others to accept me whoever i am. If i can do it, why can't others?
on my bog, you'll find the real me, i love to write about lots of things. That's what i do.
And, i can't live without my iPod, i just love listening to my iPod, it has a named, i call my iPod Poddy. Poddy is the thing that i always bring.
I usually listen to Avenged Sevenfold, Lady GaGa and more. Hope you like their musics too.
I hate my phone, i don't really like to use my phone, but i love to chat via facebook, and stuff like those. i also have twitter, but i don't really like it.
Well, i think if you have read this, you'll know enough about me.
about food? i eat everything, i drink everything but not alcohol. and i always love things those are very challenging, and i always take it. i can take the risks of the risky things.
That's all about me. Thanks for reading.
:D :P(atricia)
let's read my friends' blogs :
Jeong Soo/Stephanie Putri :
www.bigmouthed.blogspot.com
Nadya :
www.nadya-blue08.blogspot.com
Felicia :
www.tictactoeworld.blogspot.com
Brigitta :
www.myplayfulword.blogspot.com
Marlene :
www.leneblogzone.blogspot.com
and for the blog that i often read :
www.katyperryblog.tumblr.com
uh, and one more, Stanley :
www.western-hotmusic.blogspot.com
and for the ones that i haven't written, if you tell me, i will totally write your as fast as possible.
don't just read mine, read theirs.
and btw, sometimes they write their blogs with indonesia and text languages, probably you won't understand.
i sometimes can't. but for sure, their blogs are fun!
www.bigmouthed.blogspot.com
Nadya :
www.nadya-blue08.blogspot.com
Felicia :
www.tictactoeworld.blogspot.com
Brigitta :
www.myplayfulword.blogspot.com
Marlene :
www.leneblogzone.blogspot.com
and for the blog that i often read :
www.katyperryblog.tumblr.com
uh, and one more, Stanley :
www.western-hotmusic.blogspot.com
and for the ones that i haven't written, if you tell me, i will totally write your as fast as possible.
don't just read mine, read theirs.
and btw, sometimes they write their blogs with indonesia and text languages, probably you won't understand.
i sometimes can't. but for sure, their blogs are fun!
Minggu, 26 April 2009
don't touch my mind, EEK!
hill, step aside.
looking at your profile makes my wanna say : GASP!
i know, my mind, and feelings are the same as yours.
but shame on you, cause you are such a coward.
i call you didn't answer (i didn't call you,,,,)
i texted, there was no reply (this time, for real!)
i waited, you weren't there.
i guess all the things that you have told me, were all lies.
waw, that hurt, but, waw, i am sooo easy to move on.
i am not in to you anymore. well, actually i am still.
i still like so, so much.
cause everytime i think of you, my mind still give me that boom boom pow thing.
but you can't hang me up here, even i am hanging you up too.
we are hurting each other, but this is stupid.
well, who gives a shit?
i say we give it another go.
looking at your profile makes my wanna say : GASP!
i know, my mind, and feelings are the same as yours.
but shame on you, cause you are such a coward.
i call you didn't answer (i didn't call you,,,,)
i texted, there was no reply (this time, for real!)
i waited, you weren't there.
i guess all the things that you have told me, were all lies.
waw, that hurt, but, waw, i am sooo easy to move on.
i am not in to you anymore. well, actually i am still.
i still like so, so much.
cause everytime i think of you, my mind still give me that boom boom pow thing.
but you can't hang me up here, even i am hanging you up too.
we are hurting each other, but this is stupid.
well, who gives a shit?
i say we give it another go.
the two comedians
i love them, the make me happy and the always make a funny little smile on my face.
they make my stomach hurts, everytime i watch them, whether on tv, computer, or only their pics.
love you, Colin Lane and Frank Woodley.
i am stupid.
well, just like one of the people that i admire so much, pepeng, he sad that lots of people have died before their death.
how does that make any sense?
i know, people who give up before they try, and people who said : no i can't, i'll lose.
actually, they have died. cause they make themselves die.
now, i understand.
and now, i don't care about my probs anymore.
i don't give a shit about all of them.
i am friends with humans, not with my problems, sickness, or craziness.
i have lots of people to be friends with, why do i have to be friends with my problems and then cry together with them?
that is sooo not me.
well, i used to be like that, but pleasee, that is boring.
so guys, move on.
there are lots of stuff and things that you can do.
do it now!
how does that make any sense?
i know, people who give up before they try, and people who said : no i can't, i'll lose.
actually, they have died. cause they make themselves die.
now, i understand.
and now, i don't care about my probs anymore.
i don't give a shit about all of them.
i am friends with humans, not with my problems, sickness, or craziness.
i have lots of people to be friends with, why do i have to be friends with my problems and then cry together with them?
that is sooo not me.
well, i used to be like that, but pleasee, that is boring.
so guys, move on.
there are lots of stuff and things that you can do.
do it now!
talking about :
1. guys
ugh, pass pleaseee.
2. friends
i miss them sooo much, i am having a big break, and my days are off, and we aren't supposed to go to the mall cause we have lots of stuff to be done and projects to do.
i hate school, hate it need it. future is soooo scoring.
i miss my friends, from 8A-8D
i miss the voices, the sounds, the stupid gals and guys, the noisy dudes, the gossip girls (but not that tiny evil), the insiders of 8che, and more.
gosh i loveeeee you guys.
can't wait to see you guys on friday with lots of works to be cheated. wahah
:D
3.hill?
just let me talk to him first, then we can talk.
or maybe never, cause me and him haven't talked to each other after my big confession.
4. lil?
wow, he is stunning, handsome, and charming.
he was my i-want-him-to-be-my prince.
too bad, the past was just tooooo sweet, we can just be friends.
huh, i am crying, well, not i am not, miss him.
but of course, i don't like him, i like someone else.
5. love
waw, love is in the air, but i prefer to like.
6. colors?
uhh, i love orange. my cousin said that orange is a bad color.
but for me orange is cool, cute, and brave.
also unique for sure. looove orange.
7. myself
waw, lots of stuff to do.
especially i have to write an essay teling about myself.
that sounds easy, but i just haven't done it, yet.
ugh, i have to do, as fast as i don't know.
but fast.
ugh, pass pleaseee.
2. friends
i miss them sooo much, i am having a big break, and my days are off, and we aren't supposed to go to the mall cause we have lots of stuff to be done and projects to do.
i hate school, hate it need it. future is soooo scoring.
i miss my friends, from 8A-8D
i miss the voices, the sounds, the stupid gals and guys, the noisy dudes, the gossip girls (but not that tiny evil), the insiders of 8che, and more.
gosh i loveeeee you guys.
can't wait to see you guys on friday with lots of works to be cheated. wahah
:D
3.hill?
just let me talk to him first, then we can talk.
or maybe never, cause me and him haven't talked to each other after my big confession.
4. lil?
wow, he is stunning, handsome, and charming.
he was my i-want-him-to-be-my prince.
too bad, the past was just tooooo sweet, we can just be friends.
huh, i am crying, well, not i am not, miss him.
but of course, i don't like him, i like someone else.
5. love
waw, love is in the air, but i prefer to like.
6. colors?
uhh, i love orange. my cousin said that orange is a bad color.
but for me orange is cool, cute, and brave.
also unique for sure. looove orange.
7. myself
waw, lots of stuff to do.
especially i have to write an essay teling about myself.
that sounds easy, but i just haven't done it, yet.
ugh, i have to do, as fast as i don't know.
but fast.
i'm telling you, guys are, UGH.
yep, but i don't really want to talk about them or about guys right now, cause i just don't really want to. (go to hell, hill) (well, i still like you, but, you SUCK)
i just got back from bandung, a really cozy place.
i met my cousins, aunts, uncles, and more.
we chatted, talked about guys, films, movies, twilight saga, and afgan.
basically i don't really like this singer named afgan, but my sister's top is the same as his.
what a coincidence?
(hey, in facebook, my friends are fans of jackie chan, well, i am a fan of his son, jaycee chan jo-ming, waaaaa, he is sooo fine! well, not really, but handsome enough.)
nd i am not really in the modd of facebook, so i am just looking at some sutff and then log out. boring, but, who cares?
green day's new song : know your enemy is making me crazy, man! waw, the song is amazing and the video is good, too.
i like green day.
that song talks about lots of stuff from enemy, sacrifice, and more.
i need somebody to talk toooo. uhhhh, i am so bored.
help me, pleaseee.
but at least, i had fun, even tough not really fun, but today was tiring but exciting.
that makes sense, i guess.
stay tune for more.
i just got back from bandung, a really cozy place.
i met my cousins, aunts, uncles, and more.
we chatted, talked about guys, films, movies, twilight saga, and afgan.
basically i don't really like this singer named afgan, but my sister's top is the same as his.
what a coincidence?
(hey, in facebook, my friends are fans of jackie chan, well, i am a fan of his son, jaycee chan jo-ming, waaaaa, he is sooo fine! well, not really, but handsome enough.)
nd i am not really in the modd of facebook, so i am just looking at some sutff and then log out. boring, but, who cares?
green day's new song : know your enemy is making me crazy, man! waw, the song is amazing and the video is good, too.
i like green day.
that song talks about lots of stuff from enemy, sacrifice, and more.
i need somebody to talk toooo. uhhhh, i am so bored.
help me, pleaseee.
but at least, i had fun, even tough not really fun, but today was tiring but exciting.
that makes sense, i guess.
stay tune for more.
Sabtu, 25 April 2009
let's talk about hill and lil.
i know, these two stunning guys are going to get their head bigger.
but what else can i say? they're cool and stunning.
lil got a new haircut, and his haircut is very very good.
unlike hill, i have to say this, even tough i like hill but his haircut looks like i am looking at his own ass.
(yes, his haircut is sooo bad)
and then their styles are amazing.
but i like hill, he is nice, funner, and more in everything, except HAIRCUT.
that's all.
let me just say, lil looks like jaycee chan jo-ming (the person that i really really like), but he is not as nice as hill.
but hill, he is original.
ugh, stop scoring people cia.
i'll shut up then.
but let me get it straight, i like HILL.
but what else can i say? they're cool and stunning.
lil got a new haircut, and his haircut is very very good.
unlike hill, i have to say this, even tough i like hill but his haircut looks like i am looking at his own ass.
(yes, his haircut is sooo bad)
and then their styles are amazing.
but i like hill, he is nice, funner, and more in everything, except HAIRCUT.
that's all.
let me just say, lil looks like jaycee chan jo-ming (the person that i really really like), but he is not as nice as hill.
but hill, he is original.
ugh, stop scoring people cia.
i'll shut up then.
but let me get it straight, i like HILL.
i loovve youu.
i love boys, for sure and i love them :
1. JAYCEE CHAN JO-MING!
i know, he is the first chinese person that i love.
i love because, he sings, he acts, he is the son of jackie chan. waw.
2. SHIA LABEOUF!
he is cuteee! wow! and his act in transformers was soooo cool!
so amazing!
3. JESSE MCCARTNEY!
he is handsome, well not at all, but he is cute and his voice is not really bad.
these guys are the top 3!
1. JAYCEE CHAN JO-MING!
i know, he is the first chinese person that i love.
i love because, he sings, he acts, he is the son of jackie chan. waw.
2. SHIA LABEOUF!
he is cuteee! wow! and his act in transformers was soooo cool!
so amazing!
3. JESSE MCCARTNEY!
he is handsome, well not at all, but he is cute and his voice is not really bad.
these guys are the top 3!
i am expressive
full of colors and style.
let's talk about ourselves here, and about problems? shoo-shoo.
so, forget about your problems and focus on ourselves.
we are young, old, but i am sure we are talented.
upps, yes we are, i used to be shy, and now, i am learning to be myself and it's funner!
i have realized that being shy is not fun and boring, let's be wild and bad.
show yourselves, inside and out.
you are beautiful. don't forget that.
let's smoke and do some fun stuff.
stop seeing and looking like people in hollywood, they are going to be left behind.
because, it's just funner to be ourselves.
take the positives and throw the negatives.
well, maybe lots of people who are reading this think :
"patricia can't even see the positive."
well, bitch, think again, at least i am trying to motivate you to stop faking your identity and stop faking yourselves.
believe in yourselves. love yourselves and live your life.
i can love myself, why can't you?
and stop being selfish and some other bad things.
people don't like it, and i am sure yourself don't like it either
and i am still learning and trying to stop being that bad guy that people don't always like.
thanks for giving me another shot, i loove ya.
:P(atricia)
let's talk about ourselves here, and about problems? shoo-shoo.
so, forget about your problems and focus on ourselves.
we are young, old, but i am sure we are talented.
upps, yes we are, i used to be shy, and now, i am learning to be myself and it's funner!
i have realized that being shy is not fun and boring, let's be wild and bad.
show yourselves, inside and out.
you are beautiful. don't forget that.
let's smoke and do some fun stuff.
stop seeing and looking like people in hollywood, they are going to be left behind.
because, it's just funner to be ourselves.
take the positives and throw the negatives.
well, maybe lots of people who are reading this think :
"patricia can't even see the positive."
well, bitch, think again, at least i am trying to motivate you to stop faking your identity and stop faking yourselves.
believe in yourselves. love yourselves and live your life.
i can love myself, why can't you?
and stop being selfish and some other bad things.
people don't like it, and i am sure yourself don't like it either
and i am still learning and trying to stop being that bad guy that people don't always like.
thanks for giving me another shot, i loove ya.
:P(atricia)
walk and talk.
i am not going to sleep today.
there are lots of stuff to be done and to be prepared.
i have to do some work from school.
ugh, i hate school, hate it need it.
i need to go for a walk, but walking right now?
well, people will think that i am a ghost.
huh, or maybe i am already.
well, i really need a friend to talk to.
don't care from telephone or chatting or stuff.
i need to TALK, i need to SPEAK UP.
ugh! i can't find a friend at home, they are older and younger than me.
well, i do believe them, but no, they are not really fun to talk to.
and what i am gonna talk is about privacy and about probs
ughh, heLLp!
there are lots of stuff to be done and to be prepared.
i have to do some work from school.
ugh, i hate school, hate it need it.
i need to go for a walk, but walking right now?
well, people will think that i am a ghost.
huh, or maybe i am already.
well, i really need a friend to talk to.
don't care from telephone or chatting or stuff.
i need to TALK, i need to SPEAK UP.
ugh! i can't find a friend at home, they are older and younger than me.
well, i do believe them, but no, they are not really fun to talk to.
and what i am gonna talk is about privacy and about probs
ughh, heLLp!
too little too LATE
i know, i am going to look very very super duper sad, but believe me, i am not as sad as i sound.
(wait, i am just sooo excited cause right now i am downloading know your enemy, finally, good music is going to make my ears blow out!)
i am soo late, sooo desperate. i need to go to shop.
i need to buy some new stuff,.
hey i just opened my wardrobe yesterday, and i found lots of stuff to be worn. i love them.
waw, finally i will look very "teenager" on them!
you should totally take a look.
too bad my camera is off, probably will take years to find it out.
let's go to the mall together, i am sure you'll be so ashamed of yourself because you ask me out.
well, the good thing is, i have forgotten about the TOO LITTLE TOO LATE thing.
yea.
(wait, i am just sooo excited cause right now i am downloading know your enemy, finally, good music is going to make my ears blow out!)
i am soo late, sooo desperate. i need to go to shop.
i need to buy some new stuff,.
hey i just opened my wardrobe yesterday, and i found lots of stuff to be worn. i love them.
waw, finally i will look very "teenager" on them!
you should totally take a look.
too bad my camera is off, probably will take years to find it out.
let's go to the mall together, i am sure you'll be so ashamed of yourself because you ask me out.
well, the good thing is, i have forgotten about the TOO LITTLE TOO LATE thing.
yea.
let's just move on.
wahah, i am not giving up, peeps.
i used to be sad all the time because i felt rejected.
but i am not feeling that way, cause i think i am good, sooooo good.
(well, i just watched another amazing band, GREENDAY, waw, KNOW YOUR ENEMY is amazing! i have to download that song and video for sure!)
so, this guy that i have been talking, well, basically i don't really give a shit about him, but this guy, he is shitty, but nice.
UGH!
soooo, let's just forget about the problem that i am facing and then see something and do something new.
the feeling was soooo damn good.
well, forget about that great feeling, let's MOVE ON, baby!
i used to be sad all the time because i felt rejected.
but i am not feeling that way, cause i think i am good, sooooo good.
(well, i just watched another amazing band, GREENDAY, waw, KNOW YOUR ENEMY is amazing! i have to download that song and video for sure!)
so, this guy that i have been talking, well, basically i don't really give a shit about him, but this guy, he is shitty, but nice.
UGH!
soooo, let's just forget about the problem that i am facing and then see something and do something new.
the feeling was soooo damn good.
well, forget about that great feeling, let's MOVE ON, baby!
EEK!
i know you are trying to be a man, man.
but, face ti, you are a man, and people see that.
but do you really have to say those things to girls and say those things?
na-ah.
girls hate that, guess i know why you always fail.
i ain't sayin' that you are a failure in some way, but maybe i am. but your thing works.
i am chatting with a GIRL, see that read that A GIRL.
used to be just like me, and we are talking about you man.
well, i think you are sooooo overrated in some kind of a way.
just like my teacher, he said that i was exaggerating about thinking porn.
well, i wasn'r thinking about porn, ugh sir, hate you.
i know, we are hanging up each other. maybe we are testing each other.
that is shitty, but that's us.
loathe ugh.
but, face ti, you are a man, and people see that.
but do you really have to say those things to girls and say those things?
na-ah.
girls hate that, guess i know why you always fail.
i ain't sayin' that you are a failure in some way, but maybe i am. but your thing works.
i am chatting with a GIRL, see that read that A GIRL.
used to be just like me, and we are talking about you man.
well, i think you are sooooo overrated in some kind of a way.
just like my teacher, he said that i was exaggerating about thinking porn.
well, i wasn'r thinking about porn, ugh sir, hate you.
i know, we are hanging up each other. maybe we are testing each other.
that is shitty, but that's us.
loathe ugh.
Jumat, 24 April 2009
he is such a jerk.
waittt, btw, i just logged in my messenger.
my sis is online, but i am just not in the mood for chatting and stuff.
i am too tired to tell things.
can somebody just hate me please?
(wait, a girl has, a man, has maybe)
people hate me, i hate them, well, that makes sense.
i wanna go to school. see my pals, friends, my fake brother, and my friends who i usually treat like they are my sisters.
it's hard where we are, so far.
i just can't wait to go back and see you guys again and chat together and be in class and doodle.
well, about he is such a jerk.
yes he is, i opened my email, and then his.
he forwarded that email, that is so jerky, but who cares?
i don't really care, but about saying he is a jerk, well he is not really.
man like him is hard to be found, but, well. we will never know each other so well.
but someday i am sure we will figure out something good and the best thing to do.
love, ya kidd.
:P(atricia)
my sis is online, but i am just not in the mood for chatting and stuff.
i am too tired to tell things.
can somebody just hate me please?
(wait, a girl has, a man, has maybe)
people hate me, i hate them, well, that makes sense.
i wanna go to school. see my pals, friends, my fake brother, and my friends who i usually treat like they are my sisters.
it's hard where we are, so far.
i just can't wait to go back and see you guys again and chat together and be in class and doodle.
well, about he is such a jerk.
yes he is, i opened my email, and then his.
he forwarded that email, that is so jerky, but who cares?
i don't really care, but about saying he is a jerk, well he is not really.
man like him is hard to be found, but, well. we will never know each other so well.
but someday i am sure we will figure out something good and the best thing to do.
love, ya kidd.
:P(atricia)
the wolfs!
wolfs! yeay, they are on new moon.
get ready to kick them and feel the heat of their bodies.
stephenie meyer is soo unbelievable
love the novel, the films, na-ah.
sexy, aren't they?
this is so conditionals.
just like learning english. all i can say is second conditional.
soo not the real life.
hiks, what am i supposed to do?
kiss him goodbye?
if he was my boy, i would make him happy without putting myself in any danger.
if i was his girl, i would totally say yes to everything he'd say, but no to some stuff.
if i was there with him, i'd totally make him happy and make him show his pure smile which is incredibly funny.
if he wasn't that bad, i would say that i like him a loooooong time ago.
conditionals rule the world.
well, so hypothetical
yea, damn right.
soo not the real life.
hiks, what am i supposed to do?
kiss him goodbye?
if he was my boy, i would make him happy without putting myself in any danger.
if i was his girl, i would totally say yes to everything he'd say, but no to some stuff.
if i was there with him, i'd totally make him happy and make him show his pure smile which is incredibly funny.
if he wasn't that bad, i would say that i like him a loooooong time ago.
conditionals rule the world.
well, so hypothetical
yea, damn right.
imma sleep late tonight
fights are overrated.
love is so overrated.
like is unrated and being ignored.
me is being forgotten but liked.
who gives a shit?
wait that's too rude,
who's with me with all those things?
i think i am not going to sleep early. i am bored, sleeping is boring and i am just too lazy to put my head on mogu (my pillow), i am just toooooo lazy.
i think i am not gonna sleep well while my probs are hanging up there.
i want to get it, but i just can't.
ugh.
HELLp!!!!
love is so overrated.
like is unrated and being ignored.
me is being forgotten but liked.
who gives a shit?
wait that's too rude,
who's with me with all those things?
i think i am not going to sleep early. i am bored, sleeping is boring and i am just too lazy to put my head on mogu (my pillow), i am just toooooo lazy.
i think i am not gonna sleep well while my probs are hanging up there.
i want to get it, but i just can't.
ugh.
HELLp!!!!
love ya, kidd
actually this very dangerous title is not for someone or somebody.
talking about guys are so not me right now.
soooo not in the mood.
well, actually i am seeing a guy, and this guys is being who he really is.
i think so. or maybe i am wrong.
but what i think about him is so the opponent with the things that people usually say to me about him.
i am sooo confused.
well, i don't even know.
well, at least i have tried to say the truth.
it's not wrong. i think it's good. let's just hope for the best.
talking about guys are so not me right now.
soooo not in the mood.
well, actually i am seeing a guy, and this guys is being who he really is.
i think so. or maybe i am wrong.
but what i think about him is so the opponent with the things that people usually say to me about him.
i am sooo confused.
well, i don't even know.
well, at least i have tried to say the truth.
it's not wrong. i think it's good. let's just hope for the best.
don't believe it.
believe it or not, i said to him that i like him.
(this is reported speech, writing while studying, what a shit)
like to death, well, not really.
but everytime i think about him, always i get the really bad and uncomfortable feeling.
sooooo uncomfortable.
he loves to lie and i am not really good at lieing (well, actually i am soo good at lieing, but everytime i lie, it will hurt soooooo bad)
we like to lie, well, we used to lie to each other.so when we are saying the truth you don't believe me and i don't believe you.
this is our fault. not just yours but mie too.
i am so sorry, even tough i said that i wouldn't be sorry.
but i have to admit, i am saying sorry right now, like this very time.
(this is reported speech, writing while studying, what a shit)
like to death, well, not really.
but everytime i think about him, always i get the really bad and uncomfortable feeling.
sooooo uncomfortable.
he loves to lie and i am not really good at lieing (well, actually i am soo good at lieing, but everytime i lie, it will hurt soooooo bad)
we like to lie, well, we used to lie to each other.so when we are saying the truth you don't believe me and i don't believe you.
this is our fault. not just yours but mie too.
i am so sorry, even tough i said that i wouldn't be sorry.
but i have to admit, i am saying sorry right now, like this very time.
waw, why didn't you tell me you're sick of me?
well, technically you weren't and aren't
so probably, the title is just tooo bad. but i have nothing to say.
well, lots of thing to be said, but they are just pri-vacyy.
:)
i am reckless, so, i looooove to do reckless things.
like saying to a boy that you like him, or jump from a cliff (i haven't done that, but maybe if i am tired if this very world, i might will)
well, i am sooooo tired right now. not tired physically, but tired, i am just tired.
my brain's dead, my heart feels like it's not beating well.
this is shitty. or maybe i am just exaggerating.
who knows?
but whatever. my whatever means like whatever.
let's just let it flow.
if it's gonna fall, let me flow with them.
and when it's going to the wrong place, let me fix the thing.
love ya, i just don't really like this situation.
it's just very shitty.
so probably, the title is just tooo bad. but i have nothing to say.
well, lots of thing to be said, but they are just pri-vacyy.
:)
i am reckless, so, i looooove to do reckless things.
like saying to a boy that you like him, or jump from a cliff (i haven't done that, but maybe if i am tired if this very world, i might will)
well, i am sooooo tired right now. not tired physically, but tired, i am just tired.
my brain's dead, my heart feels like it's not beating well.
this is shitty. or maybe i am just exaggerating.
who knows?
but whatever. my whatever means like whatever.
let's just let it flow.
if it's gonna fall, let me flow with them.
and when it's going to the wrong place, let me fix the thing.
love ya, i just don't really like this situation.
it's just very shitty.
trusting him, na-ah.
how can i be such a stupid person?
or maybe, i am purely stupid. (that's gotta be true)
we are shutting our mouths up.
we are not in the mood to talk. talk about stuff.
maybe we don't have anything to be talked about.
or to be discussed. but, actually we have secrets to be told, but we just don't have enough braveness.
sooo stupid, i think both of us are stupid.
not just me.
i like him, sooo much, but i am afraid that i won't anymore.
well, this is love, not probably this is not love, this is like.
like is better than loe, but more complicated.
i love you like uhh, and hill, i like youu.
or maybe, i am purely stupid. (that's gotta be true)
we are shutting our mouths up.
we are not in the mood to talk. talk about stuff.
maybe we don't have anything to be talked about.
or to be discussed. but, actually we have secrets to be told, but we just don't have enough braveness.
sooo stupid, i think both of us are stupid.
not just me.
i like him, sooo much, but i am afraid that i won't anymore.
well, this is love, not probably this is not love, this is like.
like is better than loe, but more complicated.
i love you like uhh, and hill, i like youu.
i think he likes her, and me, YIKES!
being single and flirty is good you know.
sooo independent.
but i am okay with dating too.
dating is not a wrong thing, as long as me and him are not on the bed doing something wrong.
oh, imma buy a purity ring.
i know, maybe i won't marry someone in the future, but, i just don't wanna do sex before my special night.
that night i am going to be fully satisfied. sooooooooo satisfied.
well, maybe. i don't know.
well, lots of my friends, those are boys, are seeing my best friend.
i don't feel jealous, but i just don't wanna be the one that tells this :
"girl, he likes you"
or
"tell her, imma ask her something special."
duhh, shitty man, i don't give a shit about those things.
i am not jealous, but i just wanna ask this thing :
"why don't you just ask her, spontaneously?"
so, he'll know the answer, right away.
no lies and salt, so it's pure.
weew, love is complicated.
soooo complicated.
sooo independent.
but i am okay with dating too.
dating is not a wrong thing, as long as me and him are not on the bed doing something wrong.
oh, imma buy a purity ring.
i know, maybe i won't marry someone in the future, but, i just don't wanna do sex before my special night.
that night i am going to be fully satisfied. sooooooooo satisfied.
well, maybe. i don't know.
well, lots of my friends, those are boys, are seeing my best friend.
i don't feel jealous, but i just don't wanna be the one that tells this :
"girl, he likes you"
or
"tell her, imma ask her something special."
duhh, shitty man, i don't give a shit about those things.
i am not jealous, but i just wanna ask this thing :
"why don't you just ask her, spontaneously?"
so, he'll know the answer, right away.
no lies and salt, so it's pure.
weew, love is complicated.
soooo complicated.
i am HOMEEE!
yeay!
i am home, home baby!
my days are off.
yea! i am off until umm, thursday.
lots of stuff to do. but number one is : STUDY
bitch ass, why do i have to?
wait, my scores are so in fire. so, probably i need to spend some quality time with my books and stuff that smell like school
i am crying....
hueeee.
well, right now, i am listening to kanye west.
welcome to heartbreak, the video is sooooooo crazy, but the song, cool!
and lately, i've been listening to chris brown.
with you is so craaaaazy!
makes me wanna hug my "him"
wahah. lots of home works to do and things to be done.
i have final test on wednesday, so shitty!
but, my progress test passed, good thing, right?
well, wait for things to come.
love ya, kids, moms, dads, pals, and friends!
:P(atricia)
it's good to be back.
i am home, home baby!
my days are off.
yea! i am off until umm, thursday.
lots of stuff to do. but number one is : STUDY
bitch ass, why do i have to?
wait, my scores are so in fire. so, probably i need to spend some quality time with my books and stuff that smell like school
i am crying....
hueeee.
well, right now, i am listening to kanye west.
welcome to heartbreak, the video is sooooooo crazy, but the song, cool!
and lately, i've been listening to chris brown.
with you is so craaaaazy!
makes me wanna hug my "him"
wahah. lots of home works to do and things to be done.
i have final test on wednesday, so shitty!
but, my progress test passed, good thing, right?
well, wait for things to come.
love ya, kids, moms, dads, pals, and friends!
:P(atricia)
it's good to be back.
Selasa, 21 April 2009
motherly o' wild?
motherly or wild?
i will probably choose, wild.
oh hell, yeah, i love to be wild.
wild means freedom, but i won't take that "wild" word seriouly.
so probably i won't e as wild as paris.
i can't even do pole dancing (well actually i can, but not as smooth as paris, you crazy??)
(wait, tomorrow is the earth day right? support please!)
wild is guud you know. wild is about being happy
(and btw, i am talking to the best but bastrd person that i have ever known, this person amazed me! loovveee you, kid!)
my heart is not uder my control.
i am sooo ugh.
wild is about picking up the phone and turn it off, for good.
cause i don't need boys to make me live, eminem made me (damn right!)
wild is about making tattoos. imma make tattoos in the future.
i'm going to have a tattoo with a name of my future husband.
well, i don't know who he is, all i have to do is : WAIT AND SEE.
wild is about telling stories and going out to some new places.
show off myself, and show off my fams and friends.
cute, heh?
invaders? what's that?
i am listening to the prodigy, the only thing that they say in the song is :
invaders must die (BORING, but good actually)
wild is about being myself, being ourselves.
easy but hard.
remember that.
so be wild but when you are mother, please, be a mother.
i will probably choose, wild.
oh hell, yeah, i love to be wild.
wild means freedom, but i won't take that "wild" word seriouly.
so probably i won't e as wild as paris.
i can't even do pole dancing (well actually i can, but not as smooth as paris, you crazy??)
(wait, tomorrow is the earth day right? support please!)
wild is guud you know. wild is about being happy
(and btw, i am talking to the best but bastrd person that i have ever known, this person amazed me! loovveee you, kid!)
my heart is not uder my control.
i am sooo ugh.
wild is about picking up the phone and turn it off, for good.
cause i don't need boys to make me live, eminem made me (damn right!)
wild is about making tattoos. imma make tattoos in the future.
i'm going to have a tattoo with a name of my future husband.
well, i don't know who he is, all i have to do is : WAIT AND SEE.
wild is about telling stories and going out to some new places.
show off myself, and show off my fams and friends.
cute, heh?
invaders? what's that?
i am listening to the prodigy, the only thing that they say in the song is :
invaders must die (BORING, but good actually)
wild is about being myself, being ourselves.
easy but hard.
remember that.
so be wild but when you are mother, please, be a mother.
me was and me now.
i was a stupid little girl, doesn't mean i am pregnant.
i liked to lie, i liked stupid stuff, and i tried to smoke (oh hell, yeah), i liked to cry, and stuff, and most of all, i liked to throw my food away.
Patricia Utami Saragih.
i was a little good kid, and now i have gone bad.
waaa, i am an eviiiil. :)
uhh, you don;t wanna know me when i was a kid. i love milk anf i drink lots of stuff.
but i never liked to eat, now, i looooooove to eat.
but too bad, i never get bigger.
soo bad.
i liked andloved to smile, and still am.
the past is just too sweet, and i think the present is sweeter.
love ya, kidd.
baaad news,
there are some bad news and some good news.
the bad news is, i can't ans won't post tomorrow, and also the day after tomorrow.
sad, huh?
i'll miss libby and webbey so muuuuuuuuuch!
well, have i introduced you to my blogs?
this blog's name is LIBBY.
and the other one;s name is WEBBEY.
i can't cause i have to live in somewhere else, called "a place that is not my house."
huh. :(
and the good news is ;;
there are no more bad news.
good, ey?
the bad news is, i can't ans won't post tomorrow, and also the day after tomorrow.
sad, huh?
i'll miss libby and webbey so muuuuuuuuuch!
well, have i introduced you to my blogs?
this blog's name is LIBBY.
and the other one;s name is WEBBEY.
i can't cause i have to live in somewhere else, called "a place that is not my house."
huh. :(
and the good news is ;;
there are no more bad news.
good, ey?
i am wild but still :)
i am the one who doesn't give a shit about people saying bad things about me.
i like to say bad things, and bad words, but i never fake the situation.
i say fuck, that it is fuck.
i say suck, slutty, bitchy, and stuff. then those words are the ones that i wrote and said.
i like people who don't follow others to be popular.
i am who i am, you disagree and eat shit.
i am the one who never says sorry about all the things that i have said.
well, that is me. sorry then.
i am the one who likes to do things for others. i like to help and sometimes i like to see other fall and fail.
that's my thing.
but the bright side iss,, i helped.
i believe in love but i never ask for love.
well, i ask for support.
i am the one, who can make a person broken hearted (if that is a word)
wahah, that's me. so far, lots of people don't want to be friends with me because all the things that i wrote on my blogs.
who give a shit? i don't.
i am the one who loves to talk about boys, love and i change all of those things to poems, and books, also phrases (sometimes)
i am the one who has a scrapbook full of rihanna and the biodata of my friends.
i love y'all!
i am proud of who i am, saying sorry is easy, but answering might not be as easy as saying sorry.
sooo, who's with me?
i like to say bad things, and bad words, but i never fake the situation.
i say fuck, that it is fuck.
i say suck, slutty, bitchy, and stuff. then those words are the ones that i wrote and said.
i like people who don't follow others to be popular.
i am who i am, you disagree and eat shit.
i am the one who never says sorry about all the things that i have said.
well, that is me. sorry then.
i am the one who likes to do things for others. i like to help and sometimes i like to see other fall and fail.
that's my thing.
but the bright side iss,, i helped.
i believe in love but i never ask for love.
well, i ask for support.
i am the one, who can make a person broken hearted (if that is a word)
wahah, that's me. so far, lots of people don't want to be friends with me because all the things that i wrote on my blogs.
who give a shit? i don't.
i am the one who loves to talk about boys, love and i change all of those things to poems, and books, also phrases (sometimes)
i am the one who has a scrapbook full of rihanna and the biodata of my friends.
i love y'all!
i am proud of who i am, saying sorry is easy, but answering might not be as easy as saying sorry.
sooo, who's with me?
to all of you. especially you.
well, we have problems, enjoy them.
cause sometimes we don't always get problems.
when the probs are to hard to be solved, forget it, move forward.
cause you can't just stand there like a shit.
you can through every problem that you are facing.
when you are afraid, pick up your phone and call a friend.
text is good enough.
or go to your room and listen to your fav songs.
that works.
i make people hate myself, and i don't care, cause i think i am right.
cause i never talk about lies with my friend especially behind someone's back.
that is shitty, not right, so wrong.
like this very time, soemone maybe talking about me right now.
don't care if it's bad, right, or wrong.
as long as i don't know, you may breathe and live.
but, when i find out, you're dead.
just be yourself, you are accepted.
don't hate others (well, this is illegal, i hate a person, it's wrong, but it's fun)
i make my life fun, even when i am being hated by others, i think that is fun.
cause i don't care what the people say, as long as i can speak up about myself.
cry when you wanna cry, and scream when you wanna scream.
i broke things, and i think i am a superhero.
cause i rescue myself, i help myself.
nobody else can save me, and i love myself
and i think i am beautiful the way i am, and i am proud.
why do we have to be shy?
we are handsome and beautiful, and i am sure someone out there is searching for your answer.
i mean the answer from a question :
"will you marry me?"
or "will you be my girl?"
upps, don't you ever ask a man or a boy to be you man.
please, you'll drop your dignity.
but, if that's your choice, go ahead.
smile, peeps!
:P(atricia)
cause sometimes we don't always get problems.
when the probs are to hard to be solved, forget it, move forward.
cause you can't just stand there like a shit.
you can through every problem that you are facing.
when you are afraid, pick up your phone and call a friend.
text is good enough.
or go to your room and listen to your fav songs.
that works.
i make people hate myself, and i don't care, cause i think i am right.
cause i never talk about lies with my friend especially behind someone's back.
that is shitty, not right, so wrong.
like this very time, soemone maybe talking about me right now.
don't care if it's bad, right, or wrong.
as long as i don't know, you may breathe and live.
but, when i find out, you're dead.
just be yourself, you are accepted.
don't hate others (well, this is illegal, i hate a person, it's wrong, but it's fun)
i make my life fun, even when i am being hated by others, i think that is fun.
cause i don't care what the people say, as long as i can speak up about myself.
cry when you wanna cry, and scream when you wanna scream.
i broke things, and i think i am a superhero.
cause i rescue myself, i help myself.
nobody else can save me, and i love myself
and i think i am beautiful the way i am, and i am proud.
why do we have to be shy?
we are handsome and beautiful, and i am sure someone out there is searching for your answer.
i mean the answer from a question :
"will you marry me?"
or "will you be my girl?"
upps, don't you ever ask a man or a boy to be you man.
please, you'll drop your dignity.
but, if that's your choice, go ahead.
smile, peeps!
:P(atricia)
just a few things
well-well-well.
i just logged in on facebook to see who's online and who's not.
i saw that hill is a fan of a person, who is soooooo "eek!"
no, this person is not a singer, an actress/actor.
but this person for me is eeeekkk!!
and then my past boy texted me, eek.
i am not even interested to be a friend of his, again.
i gave it a shot, but all he did was teasing my parents' name.
well, i did give a shit.
and i was really mad, and i am not interested to get back.
iyyuuh.
btw, have you seen the video of boom boom pow.
so cool, but kinda weird, and i like will.i.am's new hair cut.
love ya, black eyed peas.
ugh, i am so bored.
i just logged in on facebook to see who's online and who's not.
i saw that hill is a fan of a person, who is soooooo "eek!"
no, this person is not a singer, an actress/actor.
but this person for me is eeeekkk!!
and then my past boy texted me, eek.
i am not even interested to be a friend of his, again.
i gave it a shot, but all he did was teasing my parents' name.
well, i did give a shit.
and i was really mad, and i am not interested to get back.
iyyuuh.
btw, have you seen the video of boom boom pow.
so cool, but kinda weird, and i like will.i.am's new hair cut.
love ya, black eyed peas.
ugh, i am so bored.
if i were a boy
granted? what is granted?
a boy, a man, sometimes they never understand us, and instead of understanding, they sometimes underestimate us.
a girl, a woman, sometimes got underestimated by a boy and a man.
so if i were a boy, i would never ever underestimate a girl.
i would totally be there when they need a person called "a friend"
i'd totally be their best friend.
i would never turn off my phone and always reply their smss.
i'd love them as much as i love my fams and friends.
i'd play with them as well, and i'd make people realize that woman can rule too.
(wait, that is over-rated)
but still, i'd never PLAY WITH GIRLS' FEELINGS.
girls aren't toys guys.
girls aren't you dolls.
please, show us some respect.
well, i don't need your respect, well, the others do.
a boy, a man, sometimes they never understand us, and instead of understanding, they sometimes underestimate us.
a girl, a woman, sometimes got underestimated by a boy and a man.
so if i were a boy, i would never ever underestimate a girl.
i would totally be there when they need a person called "a friend"
i'd totally be their best friend.
i would never turn off my phone and always reply their smss.
i'd love them as much as i love my fams and friends.
i'd play with them as well, and i'd make people realize that woman can rule too.
(wait, that is over-rated)
but still, i'd never PLAY WITH GIRLS' FEELINGS.
girls aren't toys guys.
girls aren't you dolls.
please, show us some respect.
well, i don't need your respect, well, the others do.
Senin, 20 April 2009
lady gaga is guud.
waw, stefani germanotta is amazing!
i am listening to lady gaga covering viva la vida. and it is amazing even with some lines that she forgot.
but still, her voice is as beautiful as her face.
love ya, lady gaga.
well, i think these are all my post for today.
ahaha, signing off.
:P(atricia)
i am listening to lady gaga covering viva la vida. and it is amazing even with some lines that she forgot.
but still, her voice is as beautiful as her face.
love ya, lady gaga.
well, i think these are all my post for today.
ahaha, signing off.
:P(atricia)
i know you hate me, cheap.
hey cheap, i know and i have realized that you hate me, soooo much.
you hate me, hate hate like crazy.
well, it's alright then, i won't be sorry writing this thing.
maybe you'll realize that i used to like you.
and i liked you like crazy.
but, i've been thinking, you scare girls.
well, you are stunning but umm, na-ah.
you hate me, hate hate like crazy.
well, it's alright then, i won't be sorry writing this thing.
maybe you'll realize that i used to like you.
and i liked you like crazy.
but, i've been thinking, you scare girls.
well, you are stunning but umm, na-ah.
-
basically as always, i don't know what to say.
i have no boys to be talked about, i have no gossips to be talked about also, and i have no topic to be typed.
boys are having their own probs.
and i am facing mine.
sometimes i get jealous because girls are hooking up, and boys are dating.
but, i have realized that i have nothing to be worried about.
and i don't have to be jealous, cause even i sometimes don't believe in love,
i always move on and keep moving forward.
just like what walt disney said.
going to school is torturing, huhuhuhh.
but, i have been thinking lately, subjects are not really boring.
and math is not really bad at all. well, still math sucks, but i am learning to love math as much as prof. eppes in numb3rs does.
and about liking boys and loving boys. o, please.
i don't waste my times for thinking about boys. duh??
and i have realized that liking a bastard and a jerk is f-uun!
but i will never date them, are you fcking crazy??
sometimes girls are stupid.
they have known that the boys that they are dating are bad, but they don't give a shit about it. and end it by crying outloud, duhhh..
so girls, be independent, is that so hard??
i have no boys to be talked about, i have no gossips to be talked about also, and i have no topic to be typed.
boys are having their own probs.
and i am facing mine.
sometimes i get jealous because girls are hooking up, and boys are dating.
but, i have realized that i have nothing to be worried about.
and i don't have to be jealous, cause even i sometimes don't believe in love,
i always move on and keep moving forward.
just like what walt disney said.
going to school is torturing, huhuhuhh.
but, i have been thinking lately, subjects are not really boring.
and math is not really bad at all. well, still math sucks, but i am learning to love math as much as prof. eppes in numb3rs does.
and about liking boys and loving boys. o, please.
i don't waste my times for thinking about boys. duh??
and i have realized that liking a bastard and a jerk is f-uun!
but i will never date them, are you fcking crazy??
sometimes girls are stupid.
they have known that the boys that they are dating are bad, but they don't give a shit about it. and end it by crying outloud, duhhh..
so girls, be independent, is that so hard??
with my sound, i don't really need to see.
singing without seeing.
forget the katy perry, i chose her cause she is wearing black sunglasses.
well, i'll explain to youu.
seeing is using your eyes. strong eyes, just like eagles'
i see with my eyes, and with my mind also my heart.
so, i can probably read what they are trying to do.
sometimes i see them when they are doing their shame things
like cheating, teasing, and every things those are bad, to my mind, eyes, and heart.
like for me, seeing a mommy's daughter is hurting.
or seeing daddy's little princess is very hurting.
not like i wish that i wanted to be treated like one, it is just hurting.
with my ears, i can hear everything.
from good to bad.
from gossips to lies.
and from someone's shame to someone's gold moment.
good thing, huh?
forget the katy perry, i chose her cause she is wearing black sunglasses.
well, i'll explain to youu.
seeing is using your eyes. strong eyes, just like eagles'
i see with my eyes, and with my mind also my heart.
so, i can probably read what they are trying to do.
sometimes i see them when they are doing their shame things
like cheating, teasing, and every things those are bad, to my mind, eyes, and heart.
like for me, seeing a mommy's daughter is hurting.
or seeing daddy's little princess is very hurting.
not like i wish that i wanted to be treated like one, it is just hurting.
with my ears, i can hear everything.
from good to bad.
from gossips to lies.
and from someone's shame to someone's gold moment.
good thing, huh?
tomorrooooow, oyeaaa!
hey bad boy, hurry up! i wanna talk to you.
and btw, there are no such things that people are talking about lately.
well, people are not talking about you anymore.
so, we are gonna talk.
well, hey hey hey.
as i told you, i am going to post some new stuff right now.
but i can't be here too long, only for couple of i don't know.
but, just enjoy the flow.
tomorrow is a big day, oyeah.
we are going to have a short mass, and then we are going to participate in some comps.
yeh, tomorrow is going to be fuuunn!
and i have to say, that i think i like this guy.
this big but tiny guy.
love is too hard, but like is just for some beginners
and yaah, i think i won;t be sorry for writing and saying this.
i know, liking him = wasting time.
but, giving it a go = a new experience, right?
i like experiences you know.
like right now, i am planning to make tattoos.
yep-yep. tattoos look fun, and show the people that we are loyal.
i am going to make 3 tattoos.
a Rosario, the name of my future husband, and then my children birth dates.
and they are all about the future.
to show my husband that i am his, forever.
looks fun, eh?
i just can't wait to do it.
:)
and btw, there are no such things that people are talking about lately.
well, people are not talking about you anymore.
so, we are gonna talk.
well, hey hey hey.
as i told you, i am going to post some new stuff right now.
but i can't be here too long, only for couple of i don't know.
but, just enjoy the flow.
tomorrow is a big day, oyeah.
we are going to have a short mass, and then we are going to participate in some comps.
yeh, tomorrow is going to be fuuunn!
and i have to say, that i think i like this guy.
this big but tiny guy.
love is too hard, but like is just for some beginners
and yaah, i think i won;t be sorry for writing and saying this.
i know, liking him = wasting time.
but, giving it a go = a new experience, right?
i like experiences you know.
like right now, i am planning to make tattoos.
yep-yep. tattoos look fun, and show the people that we are loyal.
i am going to make 3 tattoos.
a Rosario, the name of my future husband, and then my children birth dates.
and they are all about the future.
to show my husband that i am his, forever.
looks fun, eh?
i just can't wait to do it.
:)
explaining and not caring.
i am facing a really big problem.
not in school, not in my house, but in my heart and my mind.
upps, stop thinking about something bad, i'll tell you the entireeeeeeee story.
but listen, i won't post lots of posts to this blog. no, not only this one, but the other one too.
because, i have to cut down on using computer and internet :(
so baddd.
tomorrow is the easter party. i know, it's kinda late. but, well haha, at least tomorrow we are free.
i need a break, i need some time. duhhhh.
o yeah, and probably i think i am gonna post some new things around night.
cause tomorrow, there are no subjects to be learned.
so probably, i am going to be ofof this shitty problem.
naah, i ain't running away, just resting for a couple of minutes and then run again.
NO, i am not going anyewhere. come here problems, face the scariest girl that has ever lived!
ohh, i have some things that i have to show you
lately, i have been writing some messages about love and liking and i am going to show you, like right now :
People say love is a story. I am hoping love is a fairytale, cause every tale, has its own happy ending.
If love is a man, I am hoping that he is mr. right, so I can marry him and have a happy ending together.
Okay, this thing is fucking me up. I am totally sick of this thing. I need him but I don’t like him. How’s that make any sense?
Love, why people get love even they don’t even know what love means. Love comes to us, and all we have to do is wait. Waiting sucks, and we all know that. That’s why we search for love because we can’t just wait and see. This waiting thing is making me sick.
Wait and see, and then we can know what love means. Wait and see, and then we can feel the heat and the rhythm of love. Wait and see, and the we can be cured because love makes us sick, but it cures too. Wait and see, and then love comes to us. But wait and see, make us older, cause they make us curious than ever.
not in school, not in my house, but in my heart and my mind.
upps, stop thinking about something bad, i'll tell you the entireeeeeeee story.
but listen, i won't post lots of posts to this blog. no, not only this one, but the other one too.
because, i have to cut down on using computer and internet :(
so baddd.
tomorrow is the easter party. i know, it's kinda late. but, well haha, at least tomorrow we are free.
i need a break, i need some time. duhhhh.
o yeah, and probably i think i am gonna post some new things around night.
cause tomorrow, there are no subjects to be learned.
so probably, i am going to be ofof this shitty problem.
naah, i ain't running away, just resting for a couple of minutes and then run again.
NO, i am not going anyewhere. come here problems, face the scariest girl that has ever lived!
ohh, i have some things that i have to show you
lately, i have been writing some messages about love and liking and i am going to show you, like right now :
People say love is a story. I am hoping love is a fairytale, cause every tale, has its own happy ending.
If love is a man, I am hoping that he is mr. right, so I can marry him and have a happy ending together.
Okay, this thing is fucking me up. I am totally sick of this thing. I need him but I don’t like him. How’s that make any sense?
Love, why people get love even they don’t even know what love means. Love comes to us, and all we have to do is wait. Waiting sucks, and we all know that. That’s why we search for love because we can’t just wait and see. This waiting thing is making me sick.
Wait and see, and then we can know what love means. Wait and see, and then we can feel the heat and the rhythm of love. Wait and see, and the we can be cured because love makes us sick, but it cures too. Wait and see, and then love comes to us. But wait and see, make us older, cause they make us curious than ever.
Minggu, 19 April 2009
prayer
MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
Amen! - Thomas Merton, "Thoughts in Solitude"
O loving God,
You have a plan for each one of us,
You hold out to us a future full of hope.
Give us the wisdom of your Spirit
so that we can see the shape of your plan
in the gifts you have given us,
and in the circumstances of our daily lives.
Give us the freedom of your Spirit,
to seek you with all our hearts,
and to choose your will above all else.
We make this prayer through Christ our Lord.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
Amen! - Thomas Merton, "Thoughts in Solitude"
O loving God,
You have a plan for each one of us,
You hold out to us a future full of hope.
Give us the wisdom of your Spirit
so that we can see the shape of your plan
in the gifts you have given us,
and in the circumstances of our daily lives.
Give us the freedom of your Spirit,
to seek you with all our hearts,
and to choose your will above all else.
We make this prayer through Christ our Lord.
is he really?
he is nice, fun, impolite, a jerk, but still nice.
people told me :
why? why must i? he is nice, fun, and still fun, he made me smile, and maybe he still makes me smile. he doesn't sing, act of things, but he entertains me.
even we never talk to each other, he is not a jerk.
he is nice, and as long as he is on the normal level, i won't judge him.
he inspired me, as well. well, not really, but he well, he makes me smile. have you made me smile?
people told me :
i know, he plays girls' feeling. but he hasn't hurt me, yet. if he is planning to, well, i think he will hurt me, but not really bad. being hurt is bad, but i'll get over it.
and i know and i have asked for his reason, and his reason is good.
my reason is same as him, that is why i never like a person more than a week, for sure, that is why i always move and move from one boy to another.
i am soo easy to get bored. if that boy is not fun, then move it!
that's my thought.
and i think his reason and my reason is the same thing.
we are very easy to be bored. life is boring enough, and we don't want to make it more boring.
people told me :
i always am! don't worry (i know, you don't care about me, i am just sayin')
he is nice, if he is poisoning me, well, it's working. yep-yep, it's working.
but this guy is not as dangerous as he moves.
so, i'll be careful all the time, and we never talk to each other.
we only talk about movies, kanye west, lady gaga, katy perry, and music videos.
boring stuff, sometime we talk bout serious things, it's privacy!
people told me : Play him back
heyy! i am on my move. well, i was going to do that, but, i have been thinkiing, that he is no a toy. well, i have my own toys, why must living things with feelings be my toys? boring.
i don't control people, i control my own self.
and i move wherever i wanna move, i am free.
and i don;t care of what you are saying, i won't do anything bad to him.
he is nice, an precious.
his name is going to be my future son's name.
yes, that is totally true, his name is just sooo amazing.
so, back the fck off. if you just want me to play him. i think you are the one that is playing me here. you want me to ask him his secrets and then you want me to tell you his secrets. haa, no way.
btw, this is my 100th post!!!
people told me :
why? why must i? he is nice, fun, and still fun, he made me smile, and maybe he still makes me smile. he doesn't sing, act of things, but he entertains me.
even we never talk to each other, he is not a jerk.
he is nice, and as long as he is on the normal level, i won't judge him.
he inspired me, as well. well, not really, but he well, he makes me smile. have you made me smile?
people told me :
i know, he plays girls' feeling. but he hasn't hurt me, yet. if he is planning to, well, i think he will hurt me, but not really bad. being hurt is bad, but i'll get over it.
and i know and i have asked for his reason, and his reason is good.
my reason is same as him, that is why i never like a person more than a week, for sure, that is why i always move and move from one boy to another.
i am soo easy to get bored. if that boy is not fun, then move it!
that's my thought.
and i think his reason and my reason is the same thing.
we are very easy to be bored. life is boring enough, and we don't want to make it more boring.
people told me :
i always am! don't worry (i know, you don't care about me, i am just sayin')
he is nice, if he is poisoning me, well, it's working. yep-yep, it's working.
but this guy is not as dangerous as he moves.
so, i'll be careful all the time, and we never talk to each other.
we only talk about movies, kanye west, lady gaga, katy perry, and music videos.
boring stuff, sometime we talk bout serious things, it's privacy!
people told me : Play him back
heyy! i am on my move. well, i was going to do that, but, i have been thinkiing, that he is no a toy. well, i have my own toys, why must living things with feelings be my toys? boring.
i don't control people, i control my own self.
and i move wherever i wanna move, i am free.
and i don;t care of what you are saying, i won't do anything bad to him.
he is nice, an precious.
his name is going to be my future son's name.
yes, that is totally true, his name is just sooo amazing.
so, back the fck off. if you just want me to play him. i think you are the one that is playing me here. you want me to ask him his secrets and then you want me to tell you his secrets. haa, no way.
btw, this is my 100th post!!!
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