i am so dissapointed.

i am so dissapointed of my life.
but, first of all, congrats, cyn!
you're finally taken!

but, what i want to talk about is my life.
my lies to him.
and my miserable life.
i have been lying to myself, my friends, my family, and my "mine"

lately, i feel my body is so heavy.
and i have realized, that is not because of my weight, but my sins.
i ain't a saint, i am a sinner.
this life is shitting me.
i can;t focus on my subjects.
and my friends just busy on their lives.
and everybody is forgetting me.

i love my life, i love my God.
i love my friends, i love my family.
but, i am so confused right now.
i am so-not-ready-for-anything.
i don't even care about my teacher teaching some wrong stuff to us.
i am so sick.
and ill.


ugh, i need help.