there is something i promised,

about two months ago, i was falling, deeply down for something. i loved it.
and yesterday, i have told that "something" i was falling down for "it".
that something said to me, "damn, i dont know."
me too, i dont know either.

but, about 7 weeks ago, i was this happy, nasty girl. i was a real JHS girl.
i was a smiler.
i was cheap.
BUT, i was happy. and you know, people pay HIGH to be happy, bitches.
me? i was a happy bitch. it was nothing incomplete.

and NOW, i am PISSED OFF. fucked off. because of the environment, the people im living with, the world im living in, and those stuff.

why is this happening? dammit the hell.

i want to be that bitch i was before. maybe i talk too harsh but, i just want to be happy, like old times.