thoughts about me and love.

you dont know how desperate i am to search for funny little love. i used to get desperate and depressed all the time.
i see tons of girls, they wear lipsticks, mascaras, make ups. you know what? THEIR FACES ARE FAKE!

i hate girls sometimes whan they try to look beautiful, but basically they FAIL!

i used to like this guy, he is a real gentleman. he is really handsome and good-looking. uhlala~ ding it! i liked him so much. i liked to stalk him for years. hihihi it was fucking fun.

but for real,i never give a shit about boys dont like me back.
so who cares? i like you, and i dont need you to like me back.
we're friends, and so what? you dont wanna talk to me no more, go to hell man. you're such a coward.

i guess i know why i never get boyfriends. I AM SOOOOO RUDE! hahaha, i dont care.
i knwo i am freaking rude. but i say what i wanna say.

i love you. love? what is love anyway?
how many people have asked what is the meaning of love? and how many people have answered that litle but huge question?
how does love make you feel?
sad? happy? needy? or nothing?

if love makes you happy, why there are lesbians and gays?
i say that they deserve to be happy. i know, kill me because i have said that, but yes, everyone deserves to be happy, because, not just poor people deserve to be helped, but, yes, gays and lesbians need to be happy.
smile :) is that so hard?

you can hate me all the time, but, i ont care. i will never will care. iu wont even give a shit.
you fool, why do i have to spend times saying "you're mean because you said bad tings to me" to you. because ill just keep them in mind, and as in return, i'll giove something MORE SPECIAL.
no, it's not a revenge. a prayer. is that good enough?

i know, lotsa people talk about me behind my back. i dont care if they're good or bad. do i give a damn about it anyway?

i was hurt because of love, thats why i dont say love. i say LIKE. it's very different. i have feelings too.
you can see me on my blog, i am a really meany person, rude, and unworthy, and yes i am. but yes, Lord, i do have feelings. i still do.