once, i said i was selfish.

i still do.
my name always comes first and then you and others come in second.
no lie, i lie. of course, but, no no no i dont lie for myself.
lying for yourself means you fuck yourself.

i know. i girl like me is not supposed to say these things, but i always do it anyway. no one can warn me about what i do.
i was born in this world, by my lovely mother. my family is perfect, and for real, nobody teaches me to be selfish, i teach myself. guess what? being selfish is FUCKING FUN.

im not a man, im not a women, i will be someday.
my future job is to be a good loving wife.
i wish i could. selfishness, this is the one that is going to be the problem that me and my husband will face someday.

i watch everything. i say my name a lot. i talk a lot. my teachers say that i'm not smart and i'm not stupid. i'm really talkative. i didnt cry, but, they hurt me, a bit.
i hate you guys sometimes.
i just wanna say, go fuck yourself.
but, no icant, because all the things that you've done. ahhh, that thing that you said abut me is nothing to be compared with what you've done for me.

selfish patricia. selfish.

i, once, got into a problem with my best friend because of my selfishness. how jerky i am? i said sorry, she said sorry.

i have powers. i hate these powers. but, Lord, thank You for every delightful day of Yours.

selfish. because of that, i made a guy that i always blamed at asked me for my forgiveness. but, he is a jerk, of course, me and him hate each other right now.
i hate myself.
but, sometimes, i get desperate sometimes, but for real, i have no idea why i get desperate.
Father, Father, Father help us.

i;m not blaming myself because im selfish. for real, folks, i know i am selfish. but there is nothing in me that wants me to change.
well, yeah, i get along with people.
i know, i can control myself.
but, my type is, i;m not a selfsih jerk. i know myself. i know myself. i know me. but sometimes others know me more than in do. but, no one has ever made me cry because they have given me a total satisfaction.
give me one, then.

people can say that im a loser. big big big fat loser. but, who cares? i dont care if people compare me to others, those people just just go and fuck themselves.
fxk you.

yeah, i know, you need to slap my mouth.
but, once again, i know i am wrong, but i know also, that i am selfish, and you have nothing to do with it.
you can say that i am selfish, but for real, I WONT CHANGE just because of you.
cause i say to myself, i fuck the world.