look at myself, i'm a mess.

i am a mess since i was born.

well, people hate me right now.
well, i don't give a damn about it.

i am a loser, i am a dork, i am a jerk, but one thing that they can't call me, betrayer.
i ain't that person.

i always lie, but, i never lie and blame it to other people.
uhh, i am just to bastard to be a bastard.
how's that??

listen, the rest of my life, i have been a person who is weak, and never stand up for anyone else.
and now, i have learnt about standing up for other people.
now i can say words about my family.
no one messing with my family, even with their names.
remember thatl.
patricia is a guard dog.
she guards her family, even sometimes she hates them for some reasons.
but, she also guards herself.
and no one can mess her.
uh-uh, na-ah, no ONE.
not even her own family.

and now, there is another problem. friendship problems.
ugh, i just can't face it.
but i am a guard dog.
i guard myself.
and maria patricia utami saragih will fight against every single person that messes with them
my words may can't make you scared of me, but sure, myself will make you scared.

and guess what?
tomorrow no matter what time it is, i will come to everybody that messes with me and ask them : WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?

and sure they will say : "what's wrong with you?" or "ask yourself."

i may be mean and bad sometimes.
but if you know me well, you will know how to make me friends with you again.

i am not scared.